The Thought

My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
And I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be gray
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad
It's not so bad

Its been raining since this morning.
The day of Dan's wedding is approaching.
Theres still one thing that makes me feel uneasy and worry.
Put aside i-still-dont-know what should i wear on that day.
?? is that really a problem?:P

...

I really hope that He wont come.
Since ive just recover from my nightmare.
Sigh~~~
oh. anyway, i can recite the yasin that they gave me on the wedding.
thats the biggest accomplishment that i can brag on.
at least for now.

coz. mira told me,

its ok. when you have let go everything,
then ikhlas will come later.
it takes time.
it really is.

sincere? thats not us to decide.
itu kerja Tuhan kan.

but...
i really feel like i dont wanna see him anymore.
as for me, if we dont meet each other forever is better.

yes.
thats the cruelest thought that i have at this moment.
no.
its not that i dont want to see him with his happy life.

When two People
In Love Break up 

They can't Be Friends 
As they have Hurt Each other 

They can't Be Enemies 
As Once they Loved Each other 

The Only Thing They can Be
Are the Most Familiar Strangers..


its just.
i m pity with my heart.
easy to break.
easy to be flattered.
so fragile like a glass.
sometimes it was so strong.
but sometimes it hurts so bad.

and as for now...

its good to let it be.
to recover by itself.
dont have to disturb.
dont have to ask why.

because..

when you asked about the heart.
you will never get the answer.