weds!!!!

its been ages since the last time i feel so excited like this. last skali rasa camni masa abg yan kahwin ngan arwah kak ti time aku darjah 5 dulu. hee~ fuiyoo. 13 tahun! time tu seap tanda dalam diary kot tarikh abg yan kawen. hari2 tick. tak sabar tunggu diorang datang melaka. hoho. so kanak2. 0__o time kecik2, i was so close with Adah, nabil n his brothers. bila diorang datang cni, i wud bragging with my friends like "this is my luvly cousin! shes from terengganu.":D hehe. n bawak diorang round 1 kampung alai jugak sangat menyeronokkan. tu belom campur dengan kes kitorang curik beskal yang abg yan+abg ani bawak gi masjid untuk semyg jumaat. klakar gla kot tengok diorang cam cuak gla cari beskal tak jumpa2.^^ (lepas tu kitorg kena marah la tapiii.-.-")

oh. but now, sume orang dah keje (except me of course). emm. adah sampai lambat. maybe kames malam baru sampai. just makngah jela yang datang awal. adek punya pasal. kalau boleh, beliau nak datang sebulan awal kot nak menolong. ekekeke.

recall~ dulu bila cuti skola, i wud go to kak yati's house kat sg.buloh. if tiba2 kitorang dapat announcement dari kak yati yang cakap "ngoyah (my makngah) nak mari sini". that news will be like a nightmare to us. haha. imagine la.

situasi 1:
me n adah maen roller blade kat tepi rumah. then makngah mesti datang n asked us cepat2 masuk rumah. anak dara takleh maen lasak2. nanti jatuh!-.-" okay fine. kami pon menurut.

situasi 2:
maen mercun! tu pon kena marah jugaaaa. +___+ dengan nabil, hasif sume kena masuk dalam rumah. so silalah kami jadi budak baek yang hanya menonton 'Roda Impian' petang2.-.-"

emm..
but.. this time. those 3 bois tak datang pon. coz nabil ada konvo kat england. tapi kak yati n her fam ada la datang ritu. and bila mention pasal kawen, zahin wud interrupted and said "takyah cakap la. buat saket hati jek." hahaha. sape suh xde. gi marah abg kamu.:p jangan riso. kitorang akan skype jugak nanti k.

talking about kak yati. time menolong ritu, she told us many stories about our fam's history. my grandpa. mama jaga kak yati dari kecik. dats y diorang rapat. n she told us about my grandma.

beliau wanita melayu pertama di Malaysia yang membuat cincau sendiri. and mende tu masuk paper. (but of course la i cudnt find any link about it kan). kan bagus kalau zaman dulu ada internet. lol. btw. nenek sy sangat cool kan!^^ i love family gathering! n i love this feeling.:)


p/s: fuh. 5 min tules. tak sempat letak gambar diorang. mengupdate blog ketika ada tetamu ada adalah satu perbuatan yang agak tidak sopan kan.:p ok bye.

Sticky note

im happy.
im nervous.

wouldnt you miss me like i do?
could i have this kiss forever?

hope to see you.
soon....

my cloudy in its new scarf

i dont mind if you are far away.
i'll be waiting for you anyway.
under the sky of sunshine or rain,
i know im gonna be in your arms again.

you keep appeared in my dreams.
tak penat ke asyik masuk mimpi orang?

credit pic: ani.:)

ive loved you a thousand years

When will I see you again?
You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said,
No final kiss to seal any seams,
I had no idea of the state we were in,

I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
I often think about where I went wrong,
The more I do, the less I know,

But I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

Gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
And hope that you find the missing piece,
To bring you back to me..

Why don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When will I see you again?

who wears it better?

sharing is caring huh? but if too much of sharing wud be annoying jugak kan? haha. sorry dear. i wudnt make u feel annoying with me if i dont love you.:p selalu qaliz la jadi mangsa. oh i called her farah. just recently. hehe. at first dia cam x layan. but now, shes already getting used to it. lol. farah. i know you like that name.:))))

she has my feveret t-shirt in her wardrobe. aku sangatttt suke baju tu. masa tu kami shopping kat sunway. its a common baju. but dont know why i really love to wear that shirt. at that time i bought this.

sebab sy sangat suke kaler tu. hoho. so after i bought it, qaliz terjumpa baju belang tu. n i was like, aaaa! nak jugakkkk! *sambil merungut2 dalam hati apsal x sabar beli baju awal2. padan muke haku.

so, apa lg. after that, kami end up dengan sy pakai baju tu lagi kerap compare ngan farah. ahahaha. dan baju belang tu sangat mencapap di fb beta.:p

sebagai contoh:

dahla baju pinjam. hoho. kalau orang tengok pon konfius agaknya.

but i really love my dress. tapiii cam agak jarang pakai sebab sy senang bosan ngan baju sendiri. haha. kalau baju org pakai banyak kali pon tak bosan.:p lol. i hv a weird disorder. plis Dr. help me. 0___o

i mean this blouse!

sy suke mende yang flowy act.

if enun tengok gambar ni, mungkin dia akan anti aku seploh tahun. hehe. +___+

n then farah wore that blouse masa kitorang jumpa abg faizal! wink wink. sy suke laki org.:)

gedik kan mereka!^^

dan minah ni angau 2 minggu kat Ritz rambut kobis tu. aku plak? 2 minggu sedih sebab tak dapat amek gambar ngan abg faizal. lol. tapii faizal tahir sangat cooool malam tu! this entry shows cane kitorg leh jumpa beliau. sila kelik.


oh btw farah!
cepat la balek.-.-"
suke sangat cuti-panjang-tak-sedar-diri-bajet-dah-habis-master.-.-" huda n cpah dah kuar kot nak gi cari keje. i want to look for a job too! but after angah kawen+qaliz balek. so i didnt join them. aigooo. sy lapar. 0___o

Nah! sebab ko balek lambat, aku post gambar muka ko yang baru bangun tido ni.

Sila amek iktibar. bai.

Kampung boi

i never have any specific criteria about my dream guy. rupa? memang tolak tepi la. i always look at their perangai instead of mende laen yang most of girls pandang untuk someone yang dia minat. even with guy friends pon sy sangat memilih sebenarnya. there was one time when i really close with someone just because perangai dia yang sangat annoying yang macam heechul tu. tapi sekarang sebab dah terlalu jarang masa untuk melepak. hey Taq! how r u doing? aku rindu nak tarik rambut ko do.-.-"

but sometimes, sum1 yang sangat annoying camtu can be really considerate when it came to a critical moment. n suddenly Botaq yang sangat membencikan tu leh teman aku shopping dari pagi sampai malam dengan sangat sabarnya. hoho. dont judge ppl by their looks okay. haihh~ how this entry end up dengan cite pasal syed putra tu tiba2.-.-" i dreamt of him lasnyte. mana nak dapat member yang leh mimpi pasal kau tiba-tiba. sila rasa bersyukur. 0__O

okay. back to our topic. i wanna talk about my cuzzie act. i once amazed looking at him during my grandpa's funeral. hes the one yang tolong everything. dari mandi, kafan n tanam. dari sekalian cucu lelaki yang laen, dia yang offer diri turun kat dalam kubur tu. thats when i tot kampung boi can acts really fast without any thinking. hee~ but then.. i saw him again. masa hari raya aidil adha aritu. me and him are not very close altho we're in the same age. sy memang tak rapat dengan sedara belah ayah. dun know why. sedangkan majoriti diorg stay kat melaka. huuu~ blimey. i dont know why. hihi. tapi skrg dia tengah wat chambering. hooo. aku ada kazen lawyer. kau hado?:D oh! masa proses sembelih lembu tu, i guess hes the youngest guy antara pakcik2 yang kejar lembu tu. sy dok tepi je. that was my second time watching orang sembelih lembu depan mata di hari korban. yang 1st time dulu time kat rumah makngah kat terengganu. tengok ngan adah dari jaoh. lol. when i saw baju yang kena darah on him, i was like, kampung boi.. they r really stunning. can make you amazed with their kampung+charming." hahaha.

my two heroes!

yang sorang tu memang sangat cerewet dan manja. hee~ nampak darah sket trus nak muntah.:D haihhh la. adek2 aku. but my youngest bro agak kental. dia hentam je buat everything. okay! u go darlings! luv u both!:))

they said, usually girls will find 'father figure' in a guy whom they want to be their husband. haaaa. i guess i get the picture. *__* the one that i like right now suka sports n panjat gunung. emm. just like my dad huh...

what if i really came from his left side?

"i think you are the one who keep looking for him. the problem lies in you. i dont think he likes you. cant you just let him go? and you know what.. you are really stubborn. ingat bila dah besar, kurang la sket degil dia."

sis.. i really love you. but sometimes i cant understand you. okay. then what? you dont know anything about us. why we had to meet behind you. i dont understand why you cant accept him while his family can accept me. why you have to pressure me with all those kind of questions every time i came back to this home. why you cant just let us be...

as the saying goes 'kalau ada jodoh tak kemana'. ever heard of that? we are still young. if we're really not meant to be, then we wont be together no matter how hard we tried. people learned from mistakes dear. you dont need to tell us what we should do or shouldnt do. we still have a long journey before we will have a thought about getting married. you dont have to be such a controller about a life of 24 years old girl. im old enuf to create more trouble about my future. trust me. i know about my feelings. if i get hurt, i know how to handle it. i guess.... *lol.

as you said just now, im a stubborn girl after all. what do you expect. Allah knows better. can you pray for my happiness and let Allah tell me what i should do. coz i know Hes already planned everything for me and He knows who is the best soulmate for me. you dont have to worry about me. coz i will only think about marry someone when i already have savings in my acct. lama lagi kottttttt. so until i find someone that i really want him to be my husband (let say 2 mo years), you dont have to bother all the grey matters in your brain about me and my cousin. because we are not rushing into that and we dont even know what kind of feelings we had for each other. haha. (so good to be true huh?) its kind of complicated. i dont know how to explain it. if hes really not for me, then i will know it when the time comes. Okay. Thanx bye.

and i believe in this!
they said we wont meet wrong ppl in our lives.
be good to the nice ppl and learn lessons from bad ppl.
we need them in our lives.

and im willing to face all the obstacles if it can bring something good for me.
remember about my rainbow?
so lets just have a faith... :)
InsyaAllah, He will clear up the road you will walk in and give you His blessing.
amin...