All i ever wanted

Mohon ditetapkan hati.

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cuma itu pintaku.
Ya Tuhan..


In shaa Allah. everythings gonna be fine.

we dont necessarily see the truth, we actually feel it.

Knee down. to pray and let your head make sujood and feel the miracle.

BarakAllahu fiik...

Setiap kebahagiaan itu ada kesakitan yang pernah dia lalui. Kisah hidup orang semuanya berbeza. Tak adil rasanya kalau kita nak bandingkan kebahagiaan yang orang lain perolehi dengan apa yang kita tak dapat. Sebab bagi aku, setiap orang bahagianya berbeza. dugaannya pon berbeza. siapa kita nak persoalkan kenapa Tuhan beri kebahagiaan pada mereka yang kadang-kadang dugaan yang mereka lalui belum tentu kita mampu mengatasinya kalau kita yang alaminya sendiri.

bahagia. memang fitrah manusia ingin menyayangi dan disayangi dengan ikhlas. aku pernah beritahu kawan baik aku yang sekarang dah selamat kahwin pun, "susah kita nak jumpa orang yang kita suka dan dia pun suka dekat kita jugak." tu maksud jatuh cinta yang aku faham la. syukur alhamdulillah bila aku jumpa dia. entah dari mana perasaan tu hadir pon aku tak pasti. masih sujud syukur bila tahu hormon oxytocin dan serotonin aku masih berfungsi dengan baik. 0__o mana taknya, si ifi yang hati kering tiba-tiba jadi fragile gla tahap 7 petala langit.

sejak bila awak suka sy?

sejak first time diorang kenalkan awak. au yong suh sy deal dengan awak pasal konkad worker.

okay. sumpah sy tak ingat.+__+

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means dah 6 bulan? kenapa tak confess?

sebab ramai sangat orang site minat awak. sy tak berani. dah awak tu nape tak cakap awak suka sy?

sebab ramai sangat mokcik kat opis tu berkenan nak jadikan awak menantu diorang. tu baru makcik. -.-'

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paused.

sepanjang aku berkawan dengan lelaki, aku paling susah nak menangis sebab lelaki. paling-paling pun bergenanglah. which.. bergenang tu memang obviously bukan di-clasify kan sebagai menangis. mungkin sebab aku tak pernah bagi seratus peratus perasaan cinta tu pada lelaki kot.

sebelum ni, bila aku frust,

qaliz.. dia da ada someone dah. aku rasa down gla ni.

kau okay tak? sabar mek.

tapi kenapa aku tak nanges?

emm.. syukur. sebab Tuhan sangat sayangkan aku. mungkin perasaan tu bukan boleh bagi kat sebarangan orang. mungkin sebab aku belum jumpa pasangan yang ditakdirkan untuk aku. atau mungkin hati aku belum betul-betul terbuka untuk mencintai lelaki.

aku terharu bila kawan yang sepanjang masa bergaduh dengan aku boleh jadi seorang yang sangat protective.

aku harap sangattt kau boleh jaga dia sebaiknya. sebab aku dah kenal dia 7 tahun. this is the first time i see her falling in love with someone.

that words. made me felt really thankful to have you as my friend. thanks botaq. i know i can count on you.

aku sentiasa berdoa. yakin setiap dugaan yang kita lalui mesti akan ditemukan dengan bahagia di akhirnya. dan bahagia tu pun tak semestinya kekal lama. dah nama pun dunia. hidup yang ibarat roda. kejap bahagia, kejap dugaan menimpa. semua itu untuk buat kita sentiasa sedar siapa kita sebenarnya di dunia ini. macam mana hebat pun kau, Allah boleh tarik nikmat tu sekelip mata je tanpa sebarang warning. untuk cari pasangan yang kita hormat bukan senang. tapi kita kena sedar, tiada yang sempurna di dunia ini. setiap orang ada kelemahan dan kelebihan dia. mungkin kelebihan yang lelaki tu ada boleh menutupi kelemahan perempuan itu dan begitulah sebaliknya. aku sentiasa tanamkan ini dalam hati. people changed. orang yang disangka teruk tu mungkin boleh berubah menjadi lebih baik dari kita. macam mana pun kita tak boleh judge orang. Allah pun tak judge kamu. siapa kamu nak judge orang lain? hidayah itu milik Allah kan.

and the best part of this is, keep saying Thank You Allah everytime, every minutes and every second. because no matter how happy or how hard your test is, He will be the one that always be with you through your ups and down as He knew all your hopes and du'as. Allah itu Maha Adil.

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Oh Allah.. i asked your guidance in this.

please guide us into the right path.

dont let us astray with this feelings. 

I love him because of You.

and with this beautiful feelings You grant us, please unite us with Your blessing.

Amin Ya Rabbal A' lamin...

Ramadhan yang dirindui

Dear blog,

Selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan yang barakah. busy gla kot laswik. tak sempat nak wish. oh. sebab bulan puasa kitorang balek keje kol 4.30pm. jadi masa agak mencemburui sy untuk bermesra dengan blog ai sendiri.:P nak update blog pon susah. paddiaaaa. i just went to environmental briefing kat menara glomac this morning. and guess what? sy jumpa Ana. my friend masa kat Ardh dulu. ni link masa masa ai keje kat puchong dulu. SILA KELIK. hehe. lepas setahun lebih kot tak jumpa. Alhamdulillah. dia da kawen lasyear. and baru pregnant.:) time kaseh Ya Allah.

okay. apart from that, i went though page NailahIman kat insta. which i was sooooo amazed and falling in love with their telekung yang super gorgeous. cantek gla kot. *pengsan. which sume telekung yang cantek dah sold out. and pagi tadi after sahur, sy dapat text dari diorang cakap kalau nak pre-order boleh jugak. and diorang boleh anta gambar2 telekung yang akan di-release minggu depan. astu seap ada pesanan bawah tu cakap "hope to hear from you soon. jangan sedih2 okay." and i was like 'jangan sedih2?' hahaha. mesti owner page tu baca status fesbuk aku semalam. demmit. malu gla kottt. hahaha.:P but anyway.. sy tersangat la happy lepas dapat msg tu. hikhik. alhamdulillah.

for this fasting month, kitorang (Read: MY OSMET) masak kat rumah untuk buka. hehe. tapi actually tak ramai pon orang kat rumah tu since ramai osmet sy balek rumah masing-masing bulan pose ni. so penunggu setia rumah tu just sy and k.nurul jela. rumah besar2 dok 2 orang je.+__+ nak wat cane. nak ulang alik pi keje, rumah jauh kat alai. T.T wuuuu.

Terawih! oh. 1st day terawih laswik, sy dan osmet tersangatttt la semangat pi surau untuk terawih la konon2nya. ya. i know. its 1st Ramadhan. setahun skali je orang excited nak pi semayang ramai2 kat masjid. astu dapat plak imam yang SubhanAllah.. baca surah panjang glaaaa. okay. tu takpe la. after 4 rakaat, diorang ada tazkirah. sy seap tetido kot. 0__o temasuk la sume osmet ai skali. pastu kitorg seap berdiscuss pasni nak pi terawih kat surau tempat lain laaaa. tamo pi situ. aigooo. nak semayang pon milih. hukhuk. silalah malam-malam lepas tu sume orang buat terawih kat rumah jeeeee.:P

Time flies sooo fast. sekejap je da seminggu lebih puasa. banyakkan baca Al-quran. solat malam. terawih jangan tinggal okay. nak paksa Alang ikot pi terawih minggu ni. kalau adek tak dengar cakap senang sket. rotan je diorang. hehe. tepat 4.29pm! okay. jom kemas meja! bye blog. will update later.:)

Last!

Thanks Ya Allah for everything...

All praises to Allah

Kegembiraan tidak kekal selamanya. Kesedihan juga begitu.

Nikmat tidak abadi. Dugaan juga begitu.

Bertabahlah kerna dalam gembira ada sedih, dalam sedih ada gembira, dalam nikmat ada dugaan dan dalam dugaan ada nikmat. Alhamdulillah for everything..

May Allah ease everything for us.

I love you.

I love Allah.

Alhamdulillah.

little angel from above

cheeky smile for mummy uty! hikhik.:))

kite winduuuu anak buah kite yang comeyl ni!!!~

0__o

moga jadi anak yang soleh, bijak, dan berjaya dunia akhirat.

Inshaa Allah.

I love you fahri. always love you.

Mmmuuah!

Eargasm.^^

                                                                   
                                                        Love Somebody

                                I know your insides are feeling so hollow

And it's a hard pill for you to swallow, yeah
But if I fall for you, I'll never recover
If I fall for you, I'll never be the same

I really wanna love somebody
I really wanna dance the night away
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
I really wanna touch somebody
I think about you every single day
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way

You're such a hard act for me to follow
Love me today, don't leave me tomorrow, yeah
But if I fall for you, I'll never recover
If I fall for you, I'll never be the same

I really wanna love somebody
I really wanna dance the night away
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
I really wanna touch somebody
I think about you every single day
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

I don't know where to start, I'm just a little lost
I wanna feel like we never gonna ever stop
I don't know what to do, I'm right in front of you
Asking you to stay, you should stay, stay with me tonight, yeah

I really wanna love somebody
I really wanna dance the night away
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
I really wanna touch somebody
I think about you every single day
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

You can take me all the way, you can take me all the way, yeah.

credit pic: denabahrin

hes getting here. as fast as he can

im being single for quite a while.

almost 4 years if im not mistaken.

bak kata MCR, so long and gudnyte.. hihi..

falling in love..

it feelsss so awkward when i have this kind of feelings.-.-"

nak nanges wase. but still..

Alhamdulillah...

its 2 am!

Sometimes i tend to believe all those advice. blimey. instead of getting drunk, (i know as muslims we cant do that), i went through a similar situation just like that.

as for me, the most unstable and subconscious i run into whenever i woke up in the middle of the night. last night i slept quite early around 10pm (minus half an hour to be exact). hahaha. dont know why. lately, after solat isya' i wud reading magazine or novel before i sleep since i was still in the middle of 'break up' stage after abes tengok HIMYM aritu. so i tak stat pon lagi tengok TVD sebab mood tak sampai lagi. apakah?+__+ hehe.  So, lastnyte time tengah baca CLEO, baru 7 helai kott da terlelap suda. heh. typical ifi.-.-"

suddenly i woke up. around 12.30am i guess. looking for my hp. i know, im not really myself for these days. had some emotional issue with my heart, my feelings and everything. emo ngan botaq sampai nanges. haha. dah tu seap ngadu dengan bos and she was like..

bos: budak tu memang mulut jahat. tapi dia tu mulut je jahat. gurau tak fikir orang. ifi dah kenal lama takkan tak taw perangai dia camane lagi

me: dah taw mulut jahat pi kawan dengan kak ros la! takyah sakitkan hati orang.

haha. emo gla kottt.:P k.rose (bukan nama sebenar) is our admin menejer (LOL). okay selingan. lets continue shall we? sampai mana dah tadi?

1. oh. i pick up my phone. i really wanted to text someone. but according to my sensible mind, girl shudnt text a guy in the middle of the night since you dont have any relation with him. really? i told myself. "pull yourself together ifi! hang on!" boleh? at time like this, i need some distractions. i text 2 2 manusia yang bernama khaliz which i believed both of them dah selamat terbongkang tido.-.-" aih.. 2 2 tak reply. those 2 people which i know wont judge me. okay. that brother of mine might judge a little. but at least i knew he will support me. otherwise haku putus sedara kalau tak sapot. hikhik.

since nobody was there.. i hold my hp. go through to the name list. okay. find it!

"hey.. i think im in love with you."


seriously? am i drunk? i off hp because i was still sleepyyy at that time (okay. kind of nervous actually! of course i nebes!! i just confessed to someone!!) now. i shud go back to sleep right.-.-"

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2. oh. i pick up my hp. since qaliz and my dear cuzzy dint reply my text, i searched for the guy's no. reading all his messages. smiles. and go back to sleep.

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yes. i know. when its after 2 am, i should just go to sleep. because i was not in the right mind to make any decision. SO, i chose the second option. thanks HIMYM.

the end.

benchmark. bad equals hawt!

i was quite busy for these couple of days since we have 2 audits this week. one from PDP and another one is from Jabatan Audit Negara. femes glaaaa depo sungai buloh sampai JAN nak mai datang odit. T.T Nanges.-.-"

dear blog..
my boss asked me to think about something very carefully. she said that i might be regret it later on if i didnt  take a serious thought on that matter. i guess my boss can really apply for matchmaker post. *giggles. seriously! she has all that cupid capabilities. lol.

and the guy. hes the sweetest guy ive ever met. boleh mati kena diabetis sebab manis sangat.-.-" haha. thats all.

sape cakap taste ai tak valid??! you wud find that eechul is a great-annoying-insane-dorky person once you knew him. hikhik.

seriously. he really has a bad temper. +__+

aih la eechul..

like eechul like me. ^__^