The girl with sad little eyes

31^st March 2014

1.40pm

She went out of the cinema after watching Captain America. The movie was quite good but still couldn’t catch her attention.

She was wandering alone at the mall. Entered from one store and to the next. I don’t know what she was thinking about but it seemed like she was lost in her own world.

2.15pm

She arrived at Chawan. Order ‘nasi with ayam masak lemak cili api.’ Then she ate it. Not even finished half of the plate. Okay. Maybe she was on diet. Or maybe the food was not so good. Just like the movie she watched earlier.

I wonder, where were all her friends? Can’t blame them though. Its Monday. Nobody went to the mall on Monday to watch movie.

2.45pm

Its Times! Her favourite place! Nobody can stop her whenever she arrived at the book store. She went from one rack to another. She looked at the Times’ staff. He looked at her. Maybe he wondered why this girl looked so miserable. Suddenly she arrived at the religious division. She was trying to find a book. A book that can cheer her up. The cute staff went to the division, where she stood. He put lots of books at the rack. But nothing could catch her attention. She felt like asking “where can I find Hilal Asyraf collections?” But no words come out. Maybe she don’t feel like talking at that time. She saw one book. The book’s title is ‘I fall in love again.’ Her eyes looked watery inside. She took a breath. No. She wont cried in there. She held the tears carefully. So that nobody would notice it.

She then went out from that store with no plastic bag at her hand. Seriously Times? Do I really need to open up MPH in this mall?

3.10pm

She went to surau to perform Zohor prayer.

3.30pm

She continued to wander around. She still didn’t feel like going home yet. Not even sure what she was looking for but one thing she knew that she has no place to go.

4.00pm

The sky looked so dark. Its just a matter of time before the cloud splashing all of the water to the earth. She looked at the dark sky. Its raining soon after that. It was just like her heart. The tears came out so fast. She realized there was nothing she could do to erase all those pains. She cant run anymore. She still has to face it. 

She has to be strong. She needs to.

But.. she wondered…

Why Allah held her heart before and then let her fall?