heartthrob guy!

i just finish downloaded SS3 DVD after SM released that dvd last month. and lastnyte i watched it. alone. hee~ i celebrate my new year with suju btw.:p heckk. ayat foreveralone. lol. but then i watched Siwon's solo. he sang a song titled 'Looking for the day' if im not mistaken la. ado den kesah salah ke tak. coz during ss3 concert at Bukit Jalil last time, i didnt really pay attention to that guy's performance since hes not my biased. hew hew hew. gelak keji *ada ke orang gelak bunyik camtu?-__-"

for me, hes too perfect. perfect as in sampai tahap menjengkelkan tu. anak orang kaya. sangat ensem. sangat gentleman. tak reti menipu sampai aku tak taw nak rase kesian ke apa. bawak bible gi mana-mana. tak penah tengok cite blue. okay. yang tu sangat salute ah. at least dia tak cam hyukkie yang sangat suka tengok that kind of vid tahap kau rase nak cepuk kepala dia.XDD

and siwon. sometimes he can attract my attention. really. i mean it. altho u r my least favourite member and always being ignored by me! me! me!^^, but sometimes bila datang prince charming dia tu, terkedu jugak la.+__+ ss2 dulu dia bukak baju. tapi ss3 dia tak bukak baju plak. dah kena warning dengan majlis agama Islam mungkin. but still, even ur body looks like a roman statue (lol), i still dont like u. enuff said.

btw.. i really love his shirt!!!~ he looks so hotttt in that! hawt as in he makes u nosebleed kind of hawt. hahahaha.

dan.. lihat gambar gross ini.

oh. sy sangat terlalu suka t-shirt tu! or maybe its just because of siwon. pakai apa-apa pon nampak smart. my dear osmet cik fara ada t-shirt putih MNG camtu. i wore it once. but then again, actually i dont really like white shirt. it makes me feel so weird like being undress. hahaha. so sy hanya suka tengok orang lain yang pakai. thats it.

til we meet again. hv a nice day peeps!

oh. this pic buat sy rase dekat dengan siwon. lol. muntah. bai.

As a flower bloom in my heart

i had someone who wished happy new year to me. that someone never fails amazed me with his sincerity. his thoughtful. but then..

i dont celebrate new year. tapii. krismas sy sambut. lololol. okay. thats totally a lie. okay bai.

happy new year everyone!

Ya Allah,
I wanna take a minute, not to ask for anything from you. but simply to thank you for all I have. My life might seems not perfect or sometimes looked miserable, but I feel so glad cause till today You never ever let me face it all alone. Thanks Allah :')

kinda true

Insecure.

Dont hate me coz im beautiful

warning: 18SX. this entry intended only for females, girls, woman, mother and all kaum Hawa in this world. yeoja okay. yeoja. but anyhow. i will try to write as formal like an education purpose as i can. ekekeke. *just in case if there are some ppl who cannot understand the warning. :b

yeoja (korean) =girls


i was watching cabi song mv. *ehem. its not that i watched the mv because i want to look at those 3 bois hot-choc-abs. err. posting their half naked photo in this blog makes me look like a pervert. habisla reputasi innocent-naive ku selama ini.XDD *tak sampai half kot. baru suku. AAK? this is so called to be my blog right? oh. btw. i dont really like them. esp Taec. bajet tinggi (eh memang tinggi pon). emm. bajet ensem dan hot tapi poyo. and you love to do your so-called sexy dance which is for me it only looked like a cheap dance btw. okay. thats too much. tak baek kutuk orang fie. ekekeke.

okay. then this scene appeared!

eh. salah gambar. haha. kita perlukan pandangan dari depan ye kawan-kawan.

yeah. this one.

and i was like woah.. flawless gla her armpit. mesti guna laser. lol. okay. how to have a smooth and bright armpits. *since i dont really trust modern method. nanti kena kenser. 0__o so we use traditional k. dont be too ignorant pls.

mashed a cucumber and lemon sampai sebati. and apply it to your armpit for 20 minutes. very easy. try it!
Why am i telling you this? because i used to be quite bimbo before this. dan kerjaku dan farah di shopping mall adalah mengusha perempuan2 yang macam-lawa-tapi-betul2-lawa-keww? pakai spaghetti or any sleeveless dress. astu fara mesti cakap "ketiak hitam ada hati nak buat muka kerek camtu." err.. i wud just laughing hearing that.^o^

okay. till then.

*panjangnya intro? maka blog ni tiba2 berubah menjadi blog kesihatan dan kecantikkan. huuu.

Feelings

As a normal human being, who wants to feel sad? who wants to have a mood swing? who wants to waste their time with stupid emotion like a loser? No one. Even when we are facing bad news, we still hope for smile. When we fall, we still pray that someone would lend their hand to hold us up and get our feet back on the ground. Someone to understand us. From time to time, we hope for happiness, we pray for love, we pray for smiles to greet our day. In a humble way, we dont want much, we just dont want to get hurt. Not even once. And we work for it. For the best of us.

But who are we, to tell people around us "hey, dont mess with me" or tell your body "hey body, dont have pms." But who are we to hope others will understand us? Who are we for them to think before they act or speak? Who are we for them to be concern of our feelings? Who are we to be appreciated as we are? To be cherished every minutes? and to be loved for all the time?

And there goes, because we are nobody, we eat the feeling. We tell, we lose. We keep we die. So we rather waste our time by thinking and thinking. Why did they do this? And why it must be me to feel this way? For a loser like me, I might end up crying.

But darling, life is too short to feel bad, to feel sad. Why bother when there is no one who understands us, or no one to make us feel appreciated? We still have God listening to us, you know the one we cant see but we can feel. Or at least, we still have ourselves. Why most of the time we feel like we have nobody though the fact is, by standing on our feet, we are tough enough? Cant you see, we became small, tiny, and dependable when we hope on others. Come on, we are good in our own way. Allah never put us aside when we are bad. He accepts us as we are, because he created us and he knows whats the best for us.

So if you think you are that bad, stupid, loser or whatever, think again. He knows best. Thats why he created you to have complicated emotions. Its hard to be positive every time we had a problem. And i know its not okay. Its just a phase a life. Ups and downs. Dear.. I pray you will get through this. You are not alone.


Dan terpaksa menulis entri seperti orang berumur 44tahun adalah sangat tidak kelakar. Sekian.

i wish i can keep you in my room. can i?

i can keep staring at this picture like forever. and it makes me keep clicking on your profile to see that picture. a lil kid drank water while watching something with that curious-cute-face. boleh pengsan kot tengok lama-lama. comey sangat.^o^ *err. did i ask your permission to kidnap that photo? hoo. well. aak?XDD

oh. kids beanie. can you imagine both daddy and his kids wearing the same beanie?XDD aihh. berangan taknak kalah. okay. talking about kids beanie, baby mason pon suka pakai cap camtu jugak. oh tersangat kiut taw tak. and i save all his pics. hee~ pedo sangat la kan.+__+


and the last one tu gambar anak buah Aan. so credit to her. sekian.0__o sape suh ko post pic anak buah yang comel2.XDD

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i guess. i will look at their pics during my pregnancy period. oh. jauhnya berangan ifi. hikhik. aihh. rasa nak kidnap je. that explained the title of this entry.

til then.

Miss gold digger.^.^

shes our senior at school.*err. i mean, shes our 'kakak angkat' to be exact. haha. dia la yang selalu fly blok malam-malam kejut aku kol 3pagi ajak gi dewan makan layan cite Jack n Jill sambil makan megi. in other words, beliau la sifu aku sebenarnya. since dia ada kat melaka this week sebab tengah cuti. eh. cuti la sangat. dia baru resign actually sebab da boring keje kat putrajaya. n shes just got a new job in PJ starting Jan next year. oh. orang keje panjat2 bangunan memang senang dapat keje kan sis.+__+


btw. sirius tak puas lepak ritu.T__T dah kol 11. cam cuak takot ayah marah.-.-" alahaiii. but it turned out, ayah tak kesah kot. kalau stay sampai tengah malam pon takpe. lol.


kak rai: alaaa. lepak la lagi.+__+
fara: org tak kesah. tanya ifi la.
me: alaaa. next time k. tak elok anak dara balek lambat2.:) (kalau kat bangi, kol 11 tu ko baru nak kuar rumah kot ifi oi.) ...takpon akak doala org dapat keje KL nanti. kita lepak sampai pagi pon takpe.XDD

anyway.. thanx sis~ sebab belanja!^o^ i love you mo more!^^
moga rezeki anda makin bertambah lepas ni. amin.:)

p/s: diorang sempat gado time nak upload pic tu kat fb sebab tak puas ati tangan aku je yang takde bulu. apakah? sensitif nok.

why bother?

i should stick to my decision.
for once. T.T
but.
at least you were there. for me.
thank you and you.
you are the best gf!

so good to be true huh?

ehem. tak bermaksud untuk menentang mana-mana pihak. lol.

It was saturday!

my family went to kuantan for i-dont-know-whos-wed was. sedara mara kami i guess. but i didnt go. so there was only my 2 bros and me in this house. bangun-bangun tido, tengok breakfast dah tersedia.XD and mom already cooked lunch for us before they left the house. aaa. sardine! actually, i was craving to eat sardine since yesterday. after ternampak tin sardin dalam kabinet dapur time nak amek susu cair wat puding semalam. i just tot that i want to cook sardine today. heess. mama. thanx for reading my mind.^^ tak perlu saya susah2 masak arini. hehe. oh. aku sangat la hantu sardin since i was small. tak taw nape. *padahal mende dalam tin je kot? letak la lauk sedap-sedap depan mata. but if letak sardin, aku boleh tambah lebih 3 kali kot. kau mampu? otomatik hilang perihal diet aku selama ni.:/

and today...

you would never want to know how many times aku tambah tadi. 5 kali.



tak lawak okay.

I think i know you

i always remember his words. "you're only human. your memory is no more like a sieve." thats what Edward told bella when he wanted to break up with her. hee~ beriya baca buku. and i havent watch breaking dawn. yet.-.-" ya. like what edward said, i know i cant depend on my memory which sometimes really useless (sebab banyak makan semut mungkin) it made me have this kind of phobia. a fear of meeting people in the past. its not like i dont like them. i just dont know how to approach them. if i knew them, will they still remember me? but in most of the time, im the one who cannot recognize them. XDD alahaiii..

i had some encounters this year.

first, i went to along's friend's wed. someone approached me. i know. she looked familiar. she asked me, "ni kak ifi ke?". oh. mesti junior ni. i told her yes. you look familiar. but i couldnt remember your name. *jujurnya awak ifi! hoho. apekejadahnya aku nak kenal junior kan.XD after our conversation end, we took picture together. when i came back, i text farahusna. asked her about that girl. sebab fara memang jenis kenal sume orang. kasut and jam teacher Lela ada bape banyak pon dia hafal okayyyy. ekekeke. and she knew her. tapi kitorang tak ingat that junior dulu kawan ngan sape. at least kalau member dia femes, of course la aku leh ingat beliau. but anyway. nabila, nais meeting you.^^


second. during angah's wed. there was a girl with her mom. her mom asked me if i knew her daughter. then i tot oh maybe dak skola alai. hello. i went to 3 primary schools okay. please dont expect me to know all of you. well. budak baru harusla femes. lol.:p after asked me a few questions. then she said "we were not in the same class back then. so its okay if you dont know me." err. i guess i had let her down. i wondered if she will hates me after that for not remembering her. people know you but you dont know them. how terrible is that? +__+ huuu.. sieve okay. edward mentioned sieve tadi.:/

emm.. tonight i will have reunion with my primary school classmate at Umbai. since group kat fb aku sangat la jadi ahli lelap. coz i couldnt remember them all. ada la bape kerat yang aku ingat. the thing is, all my friends sume tak dapat datang sebab still belajar and tak balek kampung lagi. oh. nervous. kalau aku tak cam mereka camane? how? how? tutup muka dalam pasir boleh?-.-"

jadi tak datang?
InsyaAllah. tapi aku takde transport.
ko kan ada kereta. bawak la kete tu.
takkan aku nak drive sorang-sorang. besides aku baru pas eksiden la.
ko ni asek eksiden je. pasni eksiden dengan apa plak.
yang before ni adek aku yang eksiden la.

oh! adalah sangat tidak bagus bila kau cakap main sedap mulut bajet kau sangat macho dan ingat aku akan suka kau bila kau cakap things like that. rasa nak bom muka kau! sekian.

before the conversation end, i said "okay. anything i will call syauqi. he will come right? i trust him more than i trust you btw."

hee~ yes. efie dah bertukar dari Dr. Jekyll kepada Mr.hyde.XDD
oh. nervous la. pray for me. 0__o

bye.

new passion! puding cream crackers.

i just made my first pudding.^o^ haritu buat kek batik. today my lil bro asek merengek suh wat puding. cam biasa nak suh orang buat kena la ada balasan. mana de mende free dalam dunia ni.^^ "nak suh kekpi buat puding, cium kekpi dulu." and he did that. *beriya sungguh.-.-" then i said to him, kalau macam tu, gi kedai beli biskut cream crackers after afiq semayang jumaat. on the spot, dia teros salin baju keluar gi beli.+__+ gigihnya that lil boi.-.-" pasal nak dera aku request mende pelik-pelik memang bagi kat dia. 0__o

macam cuak sebab selalu wat puding di-monitor oleh supervisor mama. tapi sebab beliau takde, sume consequences sedap ke tak, aku yang kena responsible kan.:p but who cares. nama pon first attempt. anyway. berkat rasa yakin dalam diri (lol) i know it will surely be superlicious. coz im the one who made it!XDD

Resepi puding cream crackers. (err. perlu letak ke ni? coz this is private blog. +__+ oh. takot resepi ilang. at least ada back up.~)

5-6 biji telur
gula pasir 1 cawan
1 tin susu cair
1 tin air
14 keping biskut krim crackers
1 camca teh vanila

Cara-caranya:

Amek dalam 2,3 sudu gula. Ratakan dalam loyang (guna api paleng kecik). Jangan biar hangus/hitam taw. Astu alihkan loyang tu and letak ar atas meja ke mana-mana yang anda suka. yang ni je part yang agak leceh. sila handle carefully. pesanan untuk mereka2 yang puteri+lilin+tak+suka+handle+mende+panas+atas+dapur. cam aku? hee~

Then, amek 1 bekas. Campur sume bahan-bahan kat atas tu. yang biskut tu, hancur-hancur guna tangan pon boley. *Nak lagi cepat, guna blender suda. hehe. (sangat best+senang)

Astu tuang bahan-bahan tadi dalam loyang atas meja tadi tu. Kukus 15 min. After dah sejuk, letak dalam peti ais. Bila nak hidang, guna pisau lalukan kat dinding loyang tu. Astu amek pinggan, terbalekkan puding tu cepat-cepat.

Okay. Dah seap!!!~^.^ *Selamat Mencuba! <--ayat wajib bila orang pos resepi kat blog.:p


*aku cari susu cair. yang ada susu sejat IDEAL MILK. and i was like apa beza susu sejat and susu cair? bila tanya encik gugel, rupa2nya, ramai jugak manusia spesis macam aku yang tak taw beza susu sejat n susu cair. oh. i mean, aku takdela kampung sangat kan? hihi. ni mengikut pemahaman aku dari jawapan encik gugel.

suppose to be, susu sejat = evaporated milk. and susu cair tu fresh milk (maybe susu yang kita minum tu). tapi dalam buat kek/puding, bila cakap kena guna susu cair, it means kena guna susu sejat la. contohnya macam IDEAL milk tu ke, carnation ke, dairy champ ke. so, takya konfius la bila orang sebut susu cair tapi yang jual kat kedai tules susu sejat. sama je mende tu.

okay. till then.