February.. plis be nice to me.

time flies so fast.-.-" pejam celik, pejam celik. dah dapat gaji dah. *eh. tiba-tiba. you know.. my boss called me nurul instead of efie or syafinas. a weird feeling came into me everytime ppl call me nurul. terasa seperti sangat lembut perempuan melayu terakhir bak maya karin pakai selendang duduk tepi pantai sambil tunggu Hariz dalam ombak rindu.*oh. panjang gla description.

in the morning. after sume orang dah takde, from 7.30-8 am i wud cleaning the house. tengok cite "Adek dan Al-Quran" sambil breakfast til 8.30. then baru gerak gi opis. it took me 15minutes to drive dari rumah ke bukit katil. ya i know. you dont have to mention it. sy bawak lagi slow dari kura-kura yang patah kaki seblah. dan kalau ada lori besa yang bawak 60km/j, sy takkan ada inisiatif langsung untuk potong beliau. harap maklum. just bear with me.

talking about driving. perkara yang paleng membencikan adalah bilamana (wow. bilamana. mana jumpa word tu?) ada orang yang tiba-tiba kuar simpang tak bagi signal. aku taw la nenek ko yang buat jalan ni. tapi consider la orang laen jugak. ko bajet sume orang yang bawak kete ni sangat cekap memandu just like you? dan aku stresss glaaaaaaaaaaaa kalau tiba-tiba ada orang yang datang tah dari mana bawak kete dengan sangat laju. astu nak cucuk2 belakang kete. 0__o kau sendiri yang bangun lewat tak reti manage time astu nak bawak kete cam setan. *oh. aku taw. mana ada setan bawak kete anyway.

but anyway. you live in Malaysia. and that phenomenon is sooooo common here. just live with it. kalau ko banyak cakap sangat, sila dok KL guna public transport je ifi oi. habis cite. okay. God bless. and babai.

why is your past is still on your wrist?

"awak, kalau awak dah taknak jam tu, awak bagi saye balek taw."

that tv commercials is so cute.^^
you know.. there are many versions of the meaning giving a watch as a gift. depending on the culture. but some people said you meant to wish the person a long live. giving a gift of a time. ala2 cite In Time tu lakonan my childhood bf.XDD but from what i know, time is really important to us. kalau takde jam pon, at least kena ada hp. (sebab kat enset kan ada jam jugak) nak2 bila dah start keje. bila dah kul 5, tak taw la bape juta kali kau tengok jam bila nak kul 5.30. kalau aku la kan. if i want to give a watch to someone's special, i wud hoping that he/she will remember me everytime he/she looks at the time on her/his watch. thats the watch gift meaning for me.

but anyway..

this 'un-used-anymore-watch' is quite okay.

(tak dikira as a gift sebab awak dah takmo pakai.:p)

thanx anyway.

but still..

can i keep it forever?

the heart is not cold enough

loving someone took courage too. while others will keep it as a secret. but if its for me. when i really like someone, i would simply say it directly to him "know what? i really love you." because in my case, i wont say 'i love you' if i didnt meant it.

i had 2 relationships before. (plus minus non-serious relationship) the first one was during my matriculation. honestly, i dont really like him. but at that time i just accept him because my friends sangat minat dia sebab cute. aihhh. nampak sangat tak matured. but then, i feel like i dont want to be with him. i dont see any future when i was being with him. (baru 18 tahun. apa yang kau tahu pasal future fie?) its just i dont see any husband-like criteria in him. thats why i dumped him. its my fault. i cant accept his flaws. but you're not perfect either. and you shudnt be so mean with ppl.-.-"

and in umt, i found someone. someone who really likes me. maybe at that time he loved me more than he loves himself. willing to sacrifice everything. the one and only reason i accept him, its not because i like him too. its because all my friends asked me to do so. its really hard to find someone that really love you. and all ppl around me were really like him. his attitude. tak kesahla kawan-kawan, budak U, lecturer, pak guard sume suka dia kot. then i thought why not give him a chance. but it was too bad.. all his kindness still couldnt warm my heart. keras hati seperti batu. they said i was too cold hearted. but what should i do? i cant force my own feelings. until one day, when i said please let me go. it was the most cruel decision i had in my life. i know. what goes around comes around. im sorry. i really am.

tick tock. tick tock.

then you became single. you were so happy with your friends. the fact that you can love your girlfriends more than a guy. thats because you know, friends will last forever. berkawan sampai mati. but the guy? you will never know whether the relationship will last or not.

but the thing with loving someone. you'd hope that someone will love you too. even a tiny wheeenyyy possibility of loving you. the words 'i love you.' you have to be responsible with that when you say it. it gave hope to ppl who received it. with him. i still remember perfectly how we can be so close. the feelings selesa jadi adek has change to other feelings. and when you really love someone, you dont even realized when, where and why he suddenly became so important in your life. you can told him everything. made him feel so annoying with you. joking. playing. dating. things like that. and the best thing that i like when i fall in love, i can really be myself whenever i was being with him. and when he told you he loved you too. what more could you asked for? there you just said, Alhamdulillah. at least theres still a guy in this world can likes you the way you are. you thank Allah for giving you a chance to meet someone that you can love from the bottom of your heart.

time flies..

he was so busy with his works. and you.. have to focused things in your life. there you feel like theres a distance between you and him. he's so far from you. it was so hard to get in touch with each other. until.. you feel like all the feelings were not there anymore. you were so tired of chasing that feelings back. wondering where you stand. whether you are still in his heart. or not. but when you truly care for someone, their flaws never change your feelings. because its the mind that gets angry. but the heart still cares.

orang cakap hidup kita ni karma. today, you break someones heart. then tomorrow, other ppl will break your heart. balasan cash aku dah dapat dari Tuhan. i never fall deeply in love before. and i never love someone like this before. it makes me feel so weak. wheres the cold hearted efie that i know go?

Hey Smile, where are you?

if thats what makes me happy. then why am I so sad?

sundayyy! y u have to come this early?T.T

her 2 adeks already went to their hostel.-.-" its getting really quiet in the house. and the atmosphere is sooo gloomy. now she starts feeling sad. the feeling has come into picture. how she wishes they could stay here by her side.

No more "kekpi, teman Jia sidai baju boleh?" No more si pencilok all my shorts. since staying at this home membataskan sy untuk seksi. dan seluar pendek pink sy pon dia kebas. +__+

Ya Allah, please award me patience and luck to face all my difficulties.

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its been ages since the last time i watched '2 Days 1 Night'. and the show? never fails to make my day. i laughed really hard today. dah lama tak gelak sampai saket-saket perut camtu. hewhewhew. korean show is so weird.:/ how can they be so truthful+jujur+tak+bertempat.+__+ not like malaysian. so F.A.K.E. and the one they call 'raja lawak?'. its not funny at all. trust me. dop lawak sutir pong. *UAI yang cakap okay. err. put aside boboi. sebab sy suke afdlin.^^ ekekekeke.

eh! asal ada gambar eechul sesat kat cni? sapa yang bubuh?-.-"

walking away

the star has lost its sparkle
and its really dark here.

Did the rainbow has fade away too?
where can i find it?

Angels in my life!

The most innocent, beautiful, wonderful, peaceful

Her name is Insyirah Huda. anak my cousin, kak aja. since she was small, i was the one who always accompanied her kat rumah makngah. coz time tu Adah blajo kat Mache (sebut betol2 okay. mace. bukan machang). so mekcek sorang tu jarang balek rumah. tapiiii. kadang-kadang penat la nak layan dia. i kept told her, jangan kaco kekpi. kekpi ada keje nak buat. (padahal kau sebok layan cite Kyle XY dalam bilik kan).^^ but then, bila dia da besar sket, dia pon teman gak la aku layan cite korea. hewhewhew.

but now, dah 2 tahun dah tak jumpa. da besar si kecik neh. pakai tudung dah.
"bakpe Yah pakai tudung? yah baru 8 tahun kan."
"ibu suruh."

huuuu..~ Yah. kalau yah adek kekpi, selagi Yah tak period, kekpi pakaikan Yah skirt taw tak. XDD So, that day i was lepaking with her and her little bro, aizat. dulu aizat kecik lagi. tak senakal ni.-.-" we ate buah ciku kat depan rumah. what? ciku? ke duku? hee~ typical efie. buah-buah tempatan pon tak kenal. so it was just 3 of us. sebab dah lama tak borak n layan insyirah. it made me miss her so much. T.T

tu pun tak puas kot. n i asked her "Yah tido dengan Kekpi malam ni eh." tu pon sebab dulu everytime i went to makngah's house, Yah la teman aku tido sebab aku kan cam penakot sket.(eh banyak kot). rumah makngah dekat dengan kubur la! dunt blame me. n Kak Nia Ramadhani (Kak Aja's bibik) tido bilik lain. hihi tipu. Nia Ramadhani tu nama pelakon la.

With this little 'kaknam' kena garang sket. sebab dia sangatttt manja. 0__o and she called me lastnyte asking bila nak buatkan inai lagi untuk dia.-.-" aihhh.. kids nowadays.

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and this boi!

otomatically, i will hug n kiss him everytime i met him. heh. sedap dow peluk dia.XDD tak tipu!

dah ngantok. nanti sambung. til then.

Happy 2012 peeps!

While helping my lil bro with his english homework, i still manage to update my blog.-.-" heww.. cant help it. just realized i need to have some new resolutions for this year. err. azam tahun lepas dah tercapai ke fie?*sambil scroll balek entry last year.+__+ its time to reflect myself.

heh. aku meng-update pasal tahun baru pada 25 Januari 2012. nais one. but who said kalau nak buat azam kena on time 1 Jan jugak?

becauseeeeee...

okay. mood serious.

Ni azam yang agak serious. My first resolution.. jeng jeng jenggg. gendang gendut tali kecapi. kenyang perut suke ati. heww. takde kena mengena.

i wanna be a better person. a good servant to Allah. a better muslimah. err. solat on time. jangan tinggal solat. 0___o oh! tingginya cita-cita awak efie. ^o^ i always find this a bit difficult. coz every time waktu period dah nak sampai, otomatik rasa sangat malas nak semayang sambil doa cepat la periodddd. hewhewhew. demyuh syaiton demonic demon. i shudnt listen to you.-.-"

oh. kurangkan pakai baju atas bnt*t. kurangkan pakai skinny juga? boleh ke? okay. ada question mark di situ.

but. the most important thing.. ikhlaskan hati dalam melakukan semua benda dan buat semua kerana Allah. (ayat jawab soalan PAI form 3)

okay. thats it. i will update about this topic again. later. eh soon la. i shud make this one realistic first before talking about my other resolutions. InsyaAllah. C ya!


Dear Allah,

Im so sorry. I know i forget you when im awake. and you remember me when im asleep. i forget you when i laugh. you remember me when i cry. i forget you when i love. you remember me when i hate. i forget you when i eat. you remember me when im hungry. i forget you when i speak. you remember me when im silent. i forget you when im angry. you remember me when im patient.

But plis dont forget me when i am death. i will remember you now i am alive.

Yours sincerely,
Me.

i cant make you mine though

i need some strengths
i need someone to lean on
i need someone to talk to
but
you werent there.

and
i need to remind myself if its suppose to happen...
it will.

..

if its not..
i need to let it go.

the moment i decide not to depends on you and just let it be was the moment i got a text from you. it made me teary a bit. why eh?-.-" 기다리는 건 딱 질색.. (╥_╥)...
여자가 너무주의가 필요

2 beautiful gurls were already taken

we went to our anak buah's wed last weekend. their dad is my 2nd cousin. so that makes them dikira as kami punya anak buah la. heee.. actually, i always adore their siblings. put aside diorang tu muka mix yang memang gojes, tapi perangai diorang pon sewel jugak.

selalu kalau ada kenduri rumah sedara, if anak dara dikerah duduk kat dapur menolong.. kitorang mesti cam..
kak qish: kita nak kena tolong ke? ni bukan keje makcik2?
me: aah. kena tolong gak. nanti cikjah bising.
kak qish: okay. takpe. kita tunjuk muka je. konon2 macam buat keje banyak.
yan: hehehe. part belakon jadi rajen ni memang kami terer. lols.

tapiii dalam ramai-ramai i always met kak qish n kak zura compare dengan laen-laen. cam jarang jumpa. kak zura pon dari kecik memang dah kenal dia. sebab Dan pon rapat ngan dia. now, kak zura tengah wat housemanship kat jb. kak biha+kak qish 2 2 handle Travel Agency ayah diorang which is Rajawali Bintang Travel. diorang la bos, diorang la kuli. hewhewhew.

The Wedding!
Actually kak biha dah nikah akhir tahun lepas. just majlis buat serentak ngan kak qish (yang baru nikah laswik). emm.. jimat kos huh? macam best. oh! tersangat grand. dari pelamin, baju pengantin, all the decorations. saya tersangatttt la suka.*what do u expect wedding manager company kan.:p

mari lihat!
most ppl yang attend majlis tu suka baju kak qish. *ehem. ni yang tak best bila kawen serentak. cane2 pon, orang mesti akan compare. -.-"

baju ni! i luv d colour. tapii sy tak minat sangat design dia. kalau qaliz tengok, konfem dia suka tengok detail2 tu. heh. sy memang buta fesyen. hewhewhew..

okay. i luv this one. but if i were to choose my dress, i wont pick up kaler baju tu. tapi design tu memang sangat simple tapi still nampak ayu. hihi.^o^

eh. their wed was like morocco style which aku ngan yan dah lama ngidam nak buat tema camtu. aihhh. berangan taknak kalah. nanti aku nak kawen kat masjid n bagi nasik lemak kat tetamu n orang kampung je. bai.

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now its time to make a wish.

to the newly weds, kak nabihah+husband (tak ingat nama. maafkan saya sebab banyak makan semut) n kak balqish+hafiz

Congratulation on your wedding, im wishing you both couples a love that grows day after day and year after year! BarakAllah. May Allah bless your journey. semoga jadi lagi gojes dan dapat anak2 yang comel jugaaaa. ^^

now you can call me litigation clerk!

hewhewhew. tajuk pon dah bimbo habis. bila dah kerja, mood nak menulis pon dah berkurang. hari-hari kemas rumah, gi kerja. balek kerja sambung kemas rumah. astu kul 11 dah mengantok macam penat gla padahal kau kerja jadi kerani je kot?+__+ so far.. its not so hard to adapt with a new environment. thats because 2 2 bos tu cam okay. n sume pekerja pon best. as long as i dont have "i-dont-belong-here" feelings or feeling cam "plis-get-me-out-of-here", so that shud be okay la kan. coz dulu time practical kat FRIM kena stay bilik researcher n layan Dr.2 tu, its really torture fizikal dan mental saye. penat perasaan tu sampai hari-hari stress. heeee~ penat kot nak jadi fake and bajet cam budak pandai serta rajen belajar padahal kelas kul 8 atau kul 9 kau tak pernah pergi..-.-" (ehem. kalau pegi pon, kul 9 aku dah ajak ajieq kuar kelas makan nasik lemak)

okay. hari jumaat ritu, pagi2 lagi aku da pesan Edie tolong belikan nasik lemak bawah opis tu. sebab nasik lemak ctu sedap+pedas. then time lunch, tiba-tiba bos ajak lunch sekali sebab nak belanja. awww. nasik goreng ayam spesel datang bergolek jangan ditolak. then dia bawak gi restoran family dia kat bukit katil jugak. hooo~ aku cam biasa la agak jakun. mana la taw kedai-kedai makan kat melaka ni. n i was like, "ehhhh. canteknya design diaaa." *patut takde orang. mesti sume orang takot nak datang cni.(hati kecilku berkata)

oh. shut up fie! hewhew. after makan, kitorang gi lawat one of the firms employee yang baru pas bersalin. oh btw. i will work there for 2 months only coz im only replaced kak ani tu sementara dia berpantang. macam opis ayah aku. suka ati nak keje bape lama.+__+ mak kak ani tu masak lauk masak lemak udang. hooooo~ perut kami yang still kenyang sebab baru pas makan nampak lauk tu, tros tak keruan. 0__O irresistable kotttt. aihhh~

kesimpulannya, aritu seharian keje kami asek makan jew. okay bai.

tiba-tiba jadi positif?:b propaganda belaka.

stop being so mean you demonic demon

we're siput? yes. so what? and you? a perfect person who dont even know the truth and keep saying hurtful things. then what makes you? manusia paling sempurna yang tak pernah buat salah? i know im imperfect in every way. and guess what? i will pray for your happiness. sila jadi perfect sampai bila-bila. God bless and bai.

oh. plis ignore my rudey in this post.

and to whom it may concern,
plis dont give me any reason to draw a line and make a distance between us. im only asking a sincere friendship from you. thats all.

it creeps the hell out of me!

people say "haiwan berbisa ni selalunya berpasangan. kalau bunuh sekor, mesti pasangan dia datang plak nanti." oh! sebagai budak sains, kau takleh la nak percaya mitos dan khabar angin sebegini. but blimey. aku memang percaya cakap orang tua. 0__o call me crazy.

few days ago, aku lepak kat bilik adek. my youngest bro+sis dah selamat terbongkang atas katil. astu dah dekat kul 12, aku pon nak gi amek air semayang la b4 tido. ngeh3. kantoi solat lambat. after bukak lampu, aku nampak mak lipan yang super besarrrrrr berjalan terkedek-kedek kat dinding seblah katil adek-adek aku tido. aku stood still. lebih 1 minit gakla aku cam berpikir+konfius. cane ko boleh masuk dalam bilik ni? lipan memang boleh panjat dinding eh? ko nak join adek-adek tido jugak ke mak lipan? i wonder. last2 aku kejut 2 2 orang yang sedap tido tu. Jia la paleng terkejut. asal ada lipan besar sangat niii? dia terus gi bilik my parents kejut ayah. ayah dalam ngantok2 pon datang la bilik. seap ngan parang bagai. mak lipan tu sempat lari kat celah2 dinding tu. tak taw dia gi mana. tapi ayah still cucuk-cucuk kat celah dinding tu dengan harapan mak lipan tu akan cedera dan mati di situ.

dan kami tak menjumpai sebarang mayat mak lipan lepas tu. +__+ aku yang kecewa sebab instinct aku cakap mak lipan tu tak mati. sebab dia lipan kan. boleh senang2 lari kat celah2 dinding. dan mungkin dia juga salah sekor team savannah survivor yang boleh datang anytime untuk bunuh aku sebab aku yang nampak beliau dulu. (-___-)"

Then. esok tu.. dalam kul 11 lebih, aku tergerak ati nak gi bilik belakang. tengah on the way nak jalan, tiba-tiba si abang lipan across. right before my eyes!! (aku assume dia abang sebab dia kecik sket dari semalam)

Efie shock!

aku taw. dia datang sebab semalam mak dia dah datang. aku taw dia nak balas dendam. i knew it. i knew it. aku da cakap da mesti ada yang laen akan datang. aku stood still cam orang bodoh jugak la. kenapa diorang mesti muncul depan aku lagi? abang lipan still berlari setempat sambil menari poco-poco. (aku rasa dia injured sebab dia menari setempat je). kebetulan Jia ada kat situ. Jia pon gi ketuk bilik parents aku for the second time. hewhewhew. *ni lah yang akan berlaku bila anak sume perempuan.:b ada katak dalam rumah pon panggil ayah.^^

ayah datang dengan penyapu. ketuk-ketuk abang lipan sampai dia tinggal nyawa-nyawa lipan. astu ayah sapu terus ke pintu. GOOOOOLLLL! Full hoouse! ayah sambung bunuh dia kat luar rumah. oh. aku tak mampu melihat kejadian yang berlaku seterusnya. sebab dalam hati aku, mesti lepas ni ayah lipan plak datang? pastu adek lipan? nenek lipan? atok. cucu? aaahhhh. takottttt.

sape cakap bawak kete je leh mati? dalam rumah pon boleh jugak.+___+ even though aku still fobia dengan family lipan yang datang menziarah tu, tapi aku kena teruskan hidup. its a rule. just like survival of the fittest. the strong one survives.

dan after kejadian tu, aku semakin cuak nak kuar bilik malam-malam. takot terserempak dengan family mak lipan yang nak datang tuntut bela atas kematian anak dia.-.-" aku kena lebih berhati-hati. dear reader, if you find out my blog havent update for so long. you know what happen to me. T.T

aku doa roh lipan yang injured dan mati tu berada di tempat yang sepatutnya. okay. get some sleep fie. u r thinking too much la! gudnyte.

i was praying that you and me might end up together

sy sangat letih sebenarnya. tak tipu.

bertambah letih lepas kena bebel ngan botaq tadi. (-____-)"

"bajet mo anta tesis bila?"
"oh. sebenarnya aku baru je msg qaliz tadi tanya bila dia plan nak anta tesis. kang aku gtaw ko."

aihhh. adi pon tak penah bebel kat kitorang.
paleng2 dasat pon dia cakap "korang janganla malas2. korang kena bagi contoh kat aku. korang kan kakak."

n now adi dah selamat abes degree pon?:p

eh putra shah! sebab ko cakap nak datang melaka wiken ni mo lepak bersama beta yang cantek. nah amek ni. hadiah!XDD


"aiyoo. sayangnya. pehal takleh lak? ko kan pandai baca. bukan budak tadika lagi.haha."
"kalau pandai baca tapi takleh absorb sume tu masuk dalam kepala susah gak."

heckkkk. perbualan yang takde solution. bai.


ooohhh. qalizzzz! aku sangat suka rambut kau panjang camtu! dah. takyah ngengada nak potong pendek lagi.

the star who lost her Sparkle

I'm the one
Whos always in the way
But you got me
Hoping for more more more
I'm here to stay
As though I am always there
As though I had never left..

if and only if

the therapy! its really works!

okay. lets stop talking about DSAI dan pasal Man U baru menang tadi (wth?) and talk about something else. So! we went to Jalan Tar today~ Just me and my cuzzie. takde sape sudi teman kami. sob sob.T.T

yup. after abg sham anta kitorang sampai jalan tar, berpisah dengan that cute lil boi ahmad arif.

"amad nak ikot aci pie." peluk saye sambil tepuk2 belakang. heee~

adorable-nya la budak kecik neh. then kitorang pon jalan la kat jalan tar tu. naturally, kaki ni teros melangkah kat tempat pashminar banyak-banyak since lately ni saye sangat la suke tengok orang pakai pashminar.

"yan, kekpi nak carik pashminar kaler oren. sebab blogger yang cantek tu pakai pashminar oren."
dan yan dengan muka konfius menjawab dengan sirius, "ohhhh. maybe sebab tu dia cantek kot kekpi."
aku terus gelak tersungkur kalau boleh guling2 kat kedai tu aku da guling kot.

whats with "dia cantek sebab pakai pashminar oren?"
apa kena mengena? kenapakah?XDD

dan shopping dengan someone yang kaki shawl sebijik macam saye bukanla satu aktiviti yang sihat. sebab beliau mempengaruhi dan memaksa saye borong sume shawl kat ctu.-.-"

oh oh. fall in luv with my red pashminar.^o^ *tapi tak taw pon nak pakai bila sebab takde boifren. T____T okay. bai.

they said shopping can really makes woman happy.(mention women instead of girl sebab da sedar diri tahun ni masuk 25?) absodamnlutely right. couldnt agree more. hehe. now i know the way to pamper my heart whenever im feeling down. tapi actually tadi i was not really buying things for myself. coz everytime i found something menarik, i was like..

"oh. pashminar ni cantek. nak bagi qaliz la." *sebab memang nak beli sumthing untuk beliau dari aritu.
takpon.. "kekpi nak beli set gelang ni? kalau beli 2 set leh dapat lagi murah."
"emm. boley la. qaliz suke gelang camtu."
heh. look. saye takde la selfish mana pon. hewhewhew. nak jumpa kekasih ati nexwik.^^ oh! rindu!
you know. i did some serious shopping with that beg baju di tangan. aihh~ gigihnya perempuan ni.

If you should die before me, ask if you could bring a friend

May god bless and keep you always
May your wishes all come true
May you always do for others and let others do for you
May you build a ladder to the stars and climb on every run
May you stay, forever young

May you stay forever young
May you grow up to be righteous
May you grow up to be true
May you always know the truth
and see the lights surrounding you

May you always be courageous
Stand upright and be strong
And may you stay forever young
Forever young, forever young
May you stay forever young

May your hands always be busy
May your feet always be swift
May you have a strong foundation
When the winds of changes shift
May your heart always be joyful
May your song always be sung
and may you stay forever young
Forever young, forever young
May you stay forever young

I love you farah. with all my heart.
happy birthday.^o^

sincerely,
Syafinas~

dan aku rindu nak bergosip pasal crosby dengan kau!:p

Quick hapdet

1. ive got period pain since this morning. T___T
Alhamdulillah..

2. but still, i managed to do all the cooking
before saket perut ni maken menular tadi.
3. and after that.. i cant do anything except mengerekot atas sofa. -__-"
4. ive got a phone call from one research company in damansara.
5. i dont know if i really want that job or not.
i asked Naja n she said macam tak berbaloi.
6. tak banyak kerja yang sy apply arini. tapiiii.
keje kat lab biotech s.k tu macam interesting.
act i love biotech tapii institut biotech melaka
tak sudi amek sy keje kat negeri ni. sob sob. T.T
7. lagu sparkle tu is soooo beautiful.
8. jom sambung tido.
9. thats all for today.
10. bye.

lol.

dan ada adek kecik yang merengek2 suh goreng sate ikan ketika kamu tengah bertarung dengan nyawa (hiperbola) adalah perkara paleng stress di duniaaaaaaaaa..~~~~~~ *jangan mengeluh. tak baek.

that girl in your arms does she know where you come from?

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Just realized why i dont listen to yuna's for quite a time.
but its not a big deal. i guess.
its just.. ive many hurtful memories with her songs.
big sigh~


but anyhow.
its better to light a candle than to curse the darkness. -jes-

coz i know we'll be okay

to be honest.. ive never been a girlfriend with 1001 jealousy inside me. thats just not me. because in my opinion, if you cant trust him, then why you loved him and want to marry him in the first place? its just, if i love someone, i will put my trust in him and push it as far as i can. okay. ni lirik lagu linkin park.^^ emm.. i never stopped him befriend with anybody. because as for me, i cant stand being controlled by anybody. nak-nak jenis manusia rebel cam aku. and because of that, i dont like control people. ive seen many of my friends who cant trust their bf like your bf has to report everything to you as in all his activities starts the moment he opened his eyes and get up from the bed. and check their hp everytime they met.(oh. i just did this recently. but its not that i want to check his msg or what. but smartfon is always the best gadget to explore. haha) how can you give your life to him if you cant even do the most basic thing in relationship? trust and believing each other.

but lately.. i dont know why. the feeling that i mentioned just now. its always came bothering me. why am i like this? insecure? you are grown up enuf to let all those stupid feelings get into you. jealousy. its not a good thing. if not, takde la ayat jealousy turning saints into the sea. -__-" but in my case, as long as he knows how to console and calm me down, then i'll be okay and i wont ask anything.

i read my friend's status in fb.

"Jiwa perempuan ini sejuk, sebab tu dia suka merajuk." -Ustaz Azhar Idrus

ive no idea what does he meant by 'sejuk' since i didnt listen to his ceramah. is it cold yang bermaksud dingin tu? or sejuk as in boleh jadi beku. camane jiwa yang sejuk? but i totally agree when he stated 'sebab tu kuat merajuk.'

and i know.. if i have un-reasonable feelings bothering my heart like this, all i have to do is to keep berdoa. and guess what..

"Allah tu pemujuk hati yang terbaek."

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writing entry like this while listening to yuna's song is really not a good idea. sekian.