guys.

huda once told me this.

one way to move on is to know that there's someone else can treat you better than you've been ever treated.




MOVE ON GIRL..
please.
i beg you.
forget him.
hes not worth it.

i love you.
always.

eh. serabut? apa tu?

tesis

+

hanis' wed

+

tesis lagi

+

transport

+

tempat tinggal

+

flight

+

airport

+

tesis balek

+

supervisor

+

money

+

jilid tesis

=

this is me.

and my head?

ooooohhhhhhh.. God help me..

profile pics!

i made a new layout! tapiiii.. i kind of prefer the old one. 0__o aihh. barang yang dah diremove jangan dikenang lagi. sorry guys. i had to remove all those unnecessary pics in this blog. ngeh3. sinar petunjuk keinsafan begitu lambat hadir dalam diri. i was browsing my fb and stalking some beautiful girls. heh. i know. i know. i really got nothing to do. in the office. kan bagus kalau aktiviti stalking ni boleh dijadikan satu kerjaya.^^ bak kata kak she, ada ke perempuan yang tak suka tengok perempuan cantek? and they can publish their pics on fb confidently. untunglaaaaaa...

me on the other hand, is reaallyyy reallyyyy dont like to put my own pic as profile pic. i dont know why. letak gambar sendiri macam poyo je. tapiii. selalunya la kan, yang poyo dan terhegeh-hegeh tu la yang ramai orang suka. kan? kan. kalau tak, masakan harian metro akhbar no. 1 di Malaysia. eh tiba-tiba.

this is my most favourite pic!

the bag is so big. but i love it. shut up ppl.

i love this pic so much!

tak taw la sebab baju or that camera or what.

tapi sy mmg suka gambar ni.XDD


and these 2 pics?
...

my all time favourite!:)
cute.
suweet.
meaningful.

so, as the conclusion kalau muka sy comel macam zara aisya, boleh la sy selalu post gambar sy kat fb. okaybai. oh btw. im not really used with this new interface blog setting. T.T susahnya sy nak edit bloggg. aihhh. heyy! tomorrow will be my last day working in this office.^o^ ohhh. pasni boleh bangun lambat balek. will be missing you ust zamri (adek dan al-quran). lol.

until the very end, dak enon

her last day in sharodz before transferred to Teknik.

knowing that we will be separated, i cried hardly that day.

but..

here we are!
the feeling is still the same.
and i still love her just like 12 years ago.
(err. okay2. i will talk about my other members in the next2 entry.:p)
ramai sangat member. aihh.XDD

btw..
dah jadi wife orang dah beliau.
her wed reception will be on 24th March 2012.
*sume orang da seap beli baju.-.-"
oh. syg. doakan jodoh aku ringan jugaaaaa.:)

and..
because of shes our 3rd member yang dah kahwin.
so we asked her so many questions.
tak agak-agak budak2 neh. +___+

but i asked her only one question.
satu je okay.
..

"nol, saket tak?-.-"

feeling artis. kau mampu?

tahi lagi.

why is it so hard to get your parents blessing?
and when you disobey them,
automatically you will get bad luck right after that.
sekian.

nabilah my dearie~

since i cant go to shah alam to meet biela and join the rest, so i texted her asking her turun melaka. persuade your husband plis. kawan-kawan yang kat melaka nak jumpa wafeeey jugak.T.T i havent meet her almost one year. last sekali jumpa time biela datang semenanjung and turun shah alam last year. tu pon dengan semangat kental gi s.alam sorang-sorang. terpaksa mintak tolong encik sepupu yang tak rapat tu datang amek.:p thanx encik khalis. aihh. zaman tok kaduk punya cerita. somehow, i miss those moment. (T__T)

mommy & mommy-to-be. moonie amek berkat biela terus pregnant lepas tu.:) Alhamdulillah.
tapiiiiii.. time tu sy pon pegang perut bila jugak?-.-"

okay. back to bila. shes one of my members. kalau nak cakap pasal insolent. dia lagi dasyat dari aku kot. penah time form 2, all my members kena panggil dengan prefect skola. mostly seniors form 4 & form 5 la. kena berdiri kat depan sume orang dalam surau. at that time, they called our names. sorang-sorang. then when they called nabila, beliau teros jeling prefect2 tu dan buat muka bitchy gla. i was besides her. aku yang tak tahan nak gelak, tengok muka sume prefect tu. memang bengang gla la. u go girl!!~XDD diorang seap suh kitorang duduk balek and calling our names again dan suh wat muka lagi sopan. wtf?

memoriesssss!!~^o^

seronok kan.:b dan ketua pengawas time tu, i still remember her. kak linda. dia panggil saya time sume orang tak pasan. she advised me dengan setulus hati. she said "i know you are a good girl. awak just terpengaruh dengan diorang je ni. bukan ni cara nak jadi femes kat skola." eeii. klakar la akak neh. and you know what? last month akak tu baru kawen. dengan imam muda okayyyyy. rasa-rasa kalau aku folo nasihat akak tu dari dulu, mesti aku dapat kawen dengan imam muda jugak kan? ekekeke. there goes my wild dreams again.0__o

gambar yang diamek sejurus selepas sy dapat bezday present teddy bear tuuuu. nama dia kengkang.:) plis call him kengkang okeh. *heee..muka kanak-kanak yang penuh kesucian sesuci baju yang baru dibasuh guna soflan.

and the kain batek? its a tradition in our school wearing kain batek like that. just orang yang bersopan santun seperti Izzah ombak rindu je boleh pakai camtu. orang yang spesis macam beta yang tido tak pernah static, silalah jangan berangan nak pakai kain camtu. kalau sy pakai pon, mesti ada tangan-tangan seperti tangan fara or faten or enon yang tolong betolkan time sy tido. hahaha.

moon's engagement. hampir complete member sy time ni. eh. theres no fara in here.
asal dia takde?+__+

okay.
rakan-rakan.
i heart you bebeh.
^__^/
jumpa wiken neh.

gambar di atas? selipar mahal sy baru lepas putus. abaikan.

there's a rainbow around me today! ^o^

okay. since im all alone in my office today. kak ina took MC because she had to go to the dentist. so it gave me a lone ranger title automatically. during my lunch hour, i went to the salon.

its been ages since the last time ive got a hair treatment. the last time i went to do the treatment was during hari raya last year. lama la kan tu? okay. back to the salon thingy. the hairstylist auntie treated me sooo well today because im the only weirdo customer yang rajen datang buat treatment tengah hari buta di hari bekerja. 0__o dekat setengah jam dia cuci+urut my head. hehe. thank you auntie!

i always like to do something with my hair whenever my heart is not at ease. cut it, tie it, asked reen to do ponytail with it. just anything as long as it has something to do with hair. after seeing my hair being done, id feel calmer inside. and just like that, my heart will become happy just like my hair.:)

emm.. if i cant pamper my heart, at least i can pamper my hair right?

i always wanna have a fringe like this ^^

after i did my hair, naturally kaki ni pon melangkah masuk kedai berhampiran. i bought 2 cds. english+korea's album. i was looking for avril's and adele's latest album. but they were nowhere to be found.T.T so, i just bought suju's album. hehe. it costs me only RM5 per cd. (and you called yourself suju's die hard fan ifi?) :b is it just me or all working ppl love to spend their money just to satisfy themselves?

*oh. encik khalis can answer that question. sebab beliau pon suka bazir duet jugak bila dapat gaji.XDD

after all.. its the best therapy.:)
kan?

Blissfully Happy

now.. i can read the novel peacefully.
without worrying about my thesis anymore.
without having any nightmares about my supervisor anymore. 0__o
writing an entry while munching
'kuih belanda berkrim perisa strawberi'.
(thats what been written at the biscuit tin.:b)

it gave me a new definition of being blissfully happy.:)

All praises to Allah.^^

"Be you dust or be you star
To be what you must just reach out of what you are
And though you travel many roads
Theres but one way and thats the one you chose."

and this little freedom?
theres still a long way to go.

banyaknya buku menanti.-.-"

daisukiiiii!^__^

me my siblings were held fashion show competition. the contestant was me. err. only me? thats because Jia dah balek ostel beliau. so we dont have any other choice but to let me join the competition alone. haha. the fashion designer was my sis, along. and the judges were afiq, abg shahrir and angah.:) mereka la juri, pengkritik tetap dan tukang gelak. sekian.

after all the struggles to learn how to wear that thing. finally, we manage to wear it. *tu pon after 2 jam.-.-" sy yang terasa seperti menyarungkan cadar yang sumpah besar dan complicated di badan sendiri.+__+

along asked me to wear tudung sebab dia nak upload gambar kat fb. aihhh. tak dapat ai jadi maria ozawa. 0___O time kaseh kawan along yang baek ati bagi kimono yang cantek itewww. sugoiiii neeeee.:) hontoniii arigatouuuu.^^ *boleh sy pinjam time kawen nanti. eh. tiba-tiba.

the dream

during my cousin's wedding...

kak mas! cemana kak mas leh ada kat sini?
eh. akak ikut mak akak. ifi?
hehe. ifi kazen pengantin. belah ayah dia.
ohh. akak sedara belah mak pengantin.
wahh. kak mas.. ifi baru mimpi akak laswik. i dreamt u pregnant.
*with her glowing face.. hehe. sirius fie? doakanlah akak pregnant nanti. agaknya ifi mimpi sebab kita nak terjumpa kot.:)

shes my senior kat sharodz dulu. member kak rai. member diorang jugakla yang lecture sy dan alip kat study room aras 2 duluuuuu sampai satu skola taw. ooh. dem. pengalaman yang membencikan. haha. tapi member kitorang memang da biasa kena panggil pon. tak kesahla dengan senior yang nakal jugak or prefect. tengok jela perangai otai dak wawa. tak makan saman kottt.


but anyway..
i havent met kak mas since habis skola. but suddenly i dreamt of her. and remember when i told you about womans instinct? hehe. scary kan. korang agak-agak la kan, if aku mimpi eechul, ada possibility tak i will meet him seminggu lepas tu?

Alhamdulillah.

In the name of Allah. the most gracious. and the most merciful..

i submit my thesis last thursday. you dont believe it? me toooo!!~
i cant believe i did it. T____T *terharu

sumpah nervous time nak print. i told my boss sy nak cuti sebab nak gi ukm anta tesis. dan malam tu saya tak tido seapkan tesis. that day, i told yan that i will pick her up kul 12 tengah hari. tapiiii.. kol 11.30 sy still dok depan laptop. huuuu.. it feels like i still wanna do the best. taknak disappoint my family. (taknak disappoint diri sendiri sebenarnya. hehe) padan dengan muka haku.-.-" sape suh wat last minute.

then i drove to bangi. oh. ni pon miracle jugak.:b after all the trauma. now my confidence level in driving has increased a bit.:) Alhamdulillah. sy print tesis kat bangi. haha. datang jauh-jauh cari kedai printer. paddia fie. oh. its a proof sy memang bukan orang melaka. i dont even know katne kedai print yang murah kat melaka. huuu. i called cpah. ajak lunch sama. but she told me she cant go out sebab dia tengah busy seapkan tesis. dia suh sy anta dulu. then, i brought yan lunch kat kedai ayam penyek sedapppp. tapi that day, sambal dia tak pedas sangat pon. *sedikit kecewa sy.-.-"

without further adieu, lepas abes makan kami tros berangkat pulang. ingat nak tunggu adi balek keje dan jumpa beliau kejap. tapiiii. sebab sy tak yakin nak drive malam. dan... sy pon da letih gla. maka kami pon teros balek melaka.

ohhh. sampai-sampai rumah dah kul 7. sy teros pengsan sampai pagi esok. 0__o tu pon still tak habis qada' tido. gi keje pon keep yawning. and dok mesej ngan mil.+__+

but anyway.. thanx a lot dear cuzzy for accompanying meeeee.:) i love u darl!

singgah masjid ukm. ohhhh. student ukm rupanya dak nihhhhh.

(bila da seap tesis, baru terasa ada connection dengan ukm.
padahal selama ni kau tak ngaku langsung kau dak ukm kan)

...

Dr., i already submit my thesis.
haaa. bagus3. (banyak kali dia cakap bagus okay). sy takde kat kl. sebab sy kena gi jepun. kalau awak nak jumpa sy, nexwik la. nanti bila tarikh viva dah keluar, sy inform kamu.
okay Dr. time kasih banyak-banyak.

...

upon reaching home that day. the first person i called, of course la cik qaliz. then i text botaq.

taq! aku da anta tesis. macam tak percaya laaaaa. thanx sebab bebel kat aku ritu.-.-"

heh.. when i told him aku cam da give up. astu dia cam nak marah tapi takleh sebab takmo aku stress kot. hahaha. sila kelik link tersebut. actually i dont even know how we can be close. but i still remember time kitorang ramai-ramai nak gi wat ultrasound check breast, abdomen and pelvic time "breast cancer awareness" kat upm dulu. oh. i talk about this in my another blog. time tu muka aku sangat pucatt sebab cuak. then botaq teman aku sampai aku masuk bilik tu. hewhewhew. +__+ kawan tu bilamana dia selalu sakitkan hati kau. tapi bila waktu-waktu genting, dia akan pergi kat kau dan buat muka seperti "dont worry too much. im here for you. thats what friends are for." Tapi lepas tu, dia bebel asal tangan aku sejuk sangat.+__+ Ive told you hundred times already. im sooo afraid la! eeeii. cepuk kang. aihhh.

but anywayyy.. i love you friendsssss!^__^ love you soo much! May Allah bless you all. amin. bai.

that little charm ^__*

i love kids. naaa. i dont really like kids actually. its like this. i always find kids are so hard to be close with. challenging gla kot nak-nak kalau depa memang tak kenai ampa. so, because i love something thrill like this, so i will attract their attention. and after they love me. i wud left them after that. hahahaha. kau memang manusia kejam. eh. tapi tu zaman muda-muda dulu la. bila eyai keep kissing me, saya mesti lari dari dia sebab rimas. tapi sekarang sy da behave sket. and it turned out, i was the one who keep chasing uwais sebab nak cium dia.:b

talking about kids. last friday, time sy gi menolong Aja kawen. there was a cute little boi approached me. at that time i was balut-ing telur bersama makcik2-yang-tidak-kukenali-yang-lain. (baluting. perkataan baru cipta tadi). so, that boi mintak tolong sy buang kulit telur tu. after that, he sat besides me. watching me balut-ing all those eggs sampai makcik-makcik tu pon tanya, "anak awak ke?". oh. i wishhhh he is my son. lol. i asked him, whats his name. he said "aiman." rupa-rupanya dia anak kak nora. silalah feel ashamed of yourself ifi sebab anak sepupu sendiri pon tak kenal. 0__0 actually im not really close with kazen2 on my dad's side. and that day, i just knew rudy tu dah 31 tahun. and he married with my cousin. Aja baru 21 kottt. *jaw dropped. (naseb baek anda ensem dan bawak vios. haha)

okay. so aiman keep following me wherever i go dari hari jumaat sampai la hari sabtu tu. dia pegang je baju aku.+__+ until all my cousins were like "aiman, asal aiman asek ikot kakak ni? apa yang aiman suka sangat kat dia?" huh. sume orang nak jeles dengan beta.-.-"


oh!
this cute super adorable little gurl!!~
shes aiman's cousin. anak kak aisyah. i dont know since when dia ushar saye. (haha. ayat nak mintak pelempang habis). everytime, i went to her, dia mesti terus peluk kaki saye. aihhhhh. muka dia sangat redup. sangat comel kot. cair makcik sorang ni.^__^ jatuh cinta kat budak kecik. kau mampu?

so, i succeeded in making all my cousins and siblings (esp. along) jealous with me. lol.
dahla fie. stop bragging.

MasyaAllah. comel sangat kan zulfah ni.^o^
lembut sangat air muka dia.
be a gud girl okay sayang.

"its okay if you cant make guys fall in love with you,
because you have a charm that can make all kids loving you."

*quote baru cipta jugak. haha. bai.

one and only

the only thing that makes me keep trying my best to finish my thesis is mainly because ive my own wishlist that i will do right after i submit my thesis. i only told my close friends about it. and when i told adi, he said...

...
...


"fie, kalau ko ada seblah aku ni, dah lama dah aku pukul ko."

+____+

okay. thats all. heh. hado aku kesah? qaliz support aku what.XDD

saya asek membebel harini.

when i stressed, i always made a wrong decision that i will regret right after i made my mind about it. Sebagai contoh, when i called my boss last friday and told him that i cant go to work, i felt like i wanna go to work soon after i hung up the phone. thats because, its not nice to lie to your boss okay. 0__O mana keberkatan anda. and not only that. today, i told my sis that i cant go to her hostel because i still have to finish my thesis. kepala yang serabut makes me really easy to lose my temper. to everybody around me. *but im all alone here. sume orang gi perak anta angah. and that makes thing more stress sebab sy tak taw nak marah sapa.+____+ but.. the thing with my sis. because i let her down, i feel like im the most selfish person in the world. T_______T and i hate myself for that. takpa la. sebab orang laen dah pi lawat dia. why am i so sensitive over this?

i dunno.-.-"

it doesnt matter anymore

Well, I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it every day

And I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The same mistakes again

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs

She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside

With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside

Open your eyes
And look outside
Find the reasons why

You've been rejected
And now you can't find
What you've left behind

Be strong, be strong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs

She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside

With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside

Her feelings she hides
Her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's falling behind

She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's falling from grace
She's all over the place, yeah

She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside

With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside

She's lost inside, lost inside
Oh oh
She's lost inside, lost inside
Oh oh, oh

..................................................................

stop spoiling my mood!
can you?

dah habis period pon still nak emo. dan sekarang kau nak salahkan hormon lagi? rasa nak lempang orang. ada volunteer? 0_________o

if you're happy, then im happy too.

anda nampak segak dengan kemeja merah dan topi baru.

saya rindu.

T_______T

oh. thats heechul. wif his white cap. mamat ni jarang pakai cap. tak macam hyukkie. mungkin sebab dia taw rambut dia cantek. -.-"

time kasih Tuhan.^^

i love doing thesis!
i love reading journals!
i wish i can continue to further study to phd level!
i love discussing about the pollution in Malaysia.
i love comparing pasai pa udara kat melaka lagi teruk dari Klang? wth?
why? why?

err. did i already mentioned i love doing thesis? oh yes. thats true.

okay. thats enuf. stop lying and continue finish your work ifi! bai.^o^


mas yang sewel lukis gambar tu. ngeh3.

sy dan qaliz sama-sama memberi semangat antara satu sama lain sepanjang bulan lepas dan bulan ni. soulmate memang camtu.-.-" (oh. sebab 2 2 orang takdak bf nak tolong bagi semangat. heee) abeh je tesis ni sy nak terbang Kuching! tak kiraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!~~eh silap. sy nak ajak qaliz terbang Sabah la! sebab kuching sikda apa-apa melainkan mee kolok dan umai obor-obor yang super sedappppp.XDD

Reminder

i was browsing news feed in my fb when i saw kak she posted an article about Hijab's issue that occurred in Belgium right now. they demonstrated over there, mengecam aurat Islam. they said, dengan menutup aurat, Islam menyekat kebebasan manusia. they called it as "freedom". free our mind. do whatever that we like. thank you so much for your intention and attention to us, muslims. but i dont need that. i dont have any problem wearing hijab. sebab menda tu WAJIB. macam ust. kazim cakap, kenapa mesti nak kena fikir nak pakai ke tak sedangkan mende tu wajib? sama macam solat dan puasa. kenapa masa nak semayang tak plak pikir samada nak semayang ke tak. kenapa bila mention pakai tudung, ada je suara-suara yang cakap 'it takes time.' mana boleh paksa orang pakai tudung. buat apa pakai tudung kalau tak ikhlas? dan ayat ni paleng selalu aku dengar, "perempuan-perempuan yang pakai tudung tu tak semua yang baek." dan aku nak tanya, orang yang semayang tu semuanya baek ke? orang yang tak tinggal puasa tu betul-betul ikhlas ke diorang puasa?

emm. i know. im not that good. who am i to talk something about this. everyone have their dark side. sama macam aku. which is, mende tu yang aku still berusaha perbaiki. berdoa supaya diampunkan semua dosa. and im still trying to improve myself. cuba untuk sebut nama Allah bila melatah instead of "oh pecah!" (berjangkit dari mira dari zaman umt lagi.-.-"), cuba membiasakan diri membaca Al-Quran setiap hari. cuba amalkan surah al-Mulk dan al-Waqiah setiap hari. cuba menekan 'Astro Oasis' instead of KBS channel 391. hehe. takde sape boleh berubah on the spot. takde sapa suka kena paksa. dan bila ditanya cabaran paling susah bagi wanita. mestilah menutup aurat. (ni bagi aku la). fitrah manusia. fitrah wanita tu sendiri. ada rasa kenapa wanita yang kena tutup aurat atas kelemahan lelaki? kalau semua lelaki pandai jaga mata, takde la wanita kena pelihara semua yang ada padanya. tapi Islam itu indah kan. benda yang mahal harganya akan dijaga dan dibelai di tempat tersorok dan selamat. sudah pasti intan permata takkan dibiarkan dan ditayangkan pada semua orang bukan?

Reminisce the past.
Sebagai pelajar sekolah agama, member-member aku memang sangat terlalu rebel. cikgu disiplin yang paleng ditakuti di sekolah tu pun sangat benci dengan kami. *aku pon tak paham pasai pa dia nak emo dan anti sangat ngan geng aku. until one day, aku ingat kata-kata dia. dia cakap, dia sangat yakin kami akan jadi bohsia after kuar skola (nak tanya dia la apa yang dia faham dengan istilah bohsia tu?). bukak tudung and jadi liar. ala-ala good girls gone bad. aku la paleng hangin time tu. whats wrong with your mind? ingat prefect yang pakai tudung labuh bak telekung tu baek sangat ke? kuar skola freehair jugak. peluk-peluk dengan laki jugak.*oh. im not blaming them. its just, all those accusations are not fair kalau main cakap student jahat memang kuar-kuar skola akan jadi tak guna. no. i mean, kenapa judging ppl dari segi luaran? budak nakal tak semestinya takde agama. berbalik kepada entry lepas. but then, after skola, most of my bestfriends memang freehair pon. at that time, i was sooo sad. oh. first time i saw fara freehair time matrik dulu, aku nanges kot. *tapi bukan depan dia la. hehe. malu la ai. its just.. i love them so much. sayang gla kot member sendiri. kawan susah senang dari form 1. tapi, apa je yang kau mampu buat? the only thing that i did was berdoa. doa mereka dilembutkan hati. but a few years later, sume orang dah pakai hijab balek la.XDD Alhamdulillah.

Kak She cakap dulu haikel pernah bagitau, kalau kita dah terlintas rasa yang tak pernah kita rasa, bila kita mula rasa bersalah dengan dosa yang biasa kita buat, tu maksudnya Allah bagi kita hidayah. Jadi, bila saat tu tiba, kita kena gunakan peluang sebaiknya, sebab Allah dah kasihkan kita, sedarkan kita. Tapi kalau kita lepaskan peluang tu, tak tahu bila pulak akan dikurniakan hidayah seterusnya. Ye. hidayah itu milik Allah. tapi bila Dia dah bagi pada kita, samada kita sedar atau tidak, tu terpulang pada kekuatan iman kita sendiri.

and this entry? im not referring it to anybody. i just wanna share how i feel after i read that article. harini diorang kecam aurat kita. esok lusa tak tahu la apa yang diorang kutuk. tolonglah jangan terlalu ikut apa yang nafsu kita cakap. hidup kita cuma sementara. this entry i dedicate to myself too. banyak lagi yang kena baiki untuk pergi ke dunia satu lagi tu. but still. i need all my familiaaaa and friends to go there. InsyaAllah.

"If you do not prepare now for the afterlife, then when will you do so?"

Hanya ujian.

Doa Mohon Selamat dari Gangguan Jin

”أَعُوْذُ بِاللهِ مِنَ الشَّيْطَانِ الرَّجِيْم إِنَّهُ هُوَ السَّمِيعُ الْعَلِيْمُ“
”أَعُوذُ بِوَجْهِ اللَّهِ الْكَرِيمِ وَبِكَلِمَاتِ اللَّهِ التَّامَّاتِ اللَّاتِي لَا ‏يُجَاوِزُهُنَّ ‏ ‏بَرٌّ وَلَا فَاجِرٌ مِنْ شَرِّ مَا يَنْزِلُ مِنْ السَّمَاءِ وَشَرِّ مَا يَعْرُجُ فِيهَا وَشَرِّ مَا ‏ ‏ذَرَأَ ‏ ‏فِي الْأَرْضِ وَشَرِّ مَا يَخْرُجُ مِنْهَا وَمِنْ فِتَنِ اللَّيْلِ وَالنَّهَارِ وَمِنْ طَوَارِقِ اللَّيْلِ وَالنَّهَارِ إِلَّا طَارِقًا يَطْرُقُ بِخَيْرٍ يَا رَحْمَنُ“

Terjemahan

Aku mohon berlindung dengan Allah dari syaitan yang direjam. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mendengar dan Maha Mengetahui. Aku berlindung dengan wajah Allah yang Maha Mulia dan dengan kalimat-Nya yang sempurna yang tidak diatasi oleh orang yang baik dan orang yang berdosa, dari segala perkara yang turun dari langit dan perkara yang naik padanya, dan dari seburuk-buruk perkara yang membiak di bumi dan seburuk-buruk perkara yang keluar daripadanya, dan dari fitnah malam dan siang, dan daripada pendatang-pendatang yang mengejutkan pada waktu malam dan siang, kecuali pendatang yang membawa masuk kebajikan. Ya Allah yang Maha Rahman, perkenankan doaku

Ya Allah Tuhan Pemelihara sekalian alam, peliharalah diriku dan keluargaku dari segala gangguan syaitan yang direjam. Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang kami tidak terdaya memikulnya. Dan maafkanlah kesalahan kami, serta ampunkanlah dosa kami, dan berilah rahmat kepada kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami. Amin.. amin ya Rabbal a'lamin.

Aku sayang kamu kerana Allah.

"and He found you lost, and guided you."

(Surah Ad-Dhuhaa: 7)

she has become a little angel who shared a laugh in every presence. although it was heavy, she has been taught how painful can be force to keep pace. although tears wont stop flowing, but shes trying to understand what is sincere, doing something without expecting replies. -Delisa-

and i love this one quote.

"orang yang susah melakukan sesuatu itu kerana hatinya tidak ikhlas."

i will keep reminding myself about that.

thanx to ust. rahman btw. hehe.

ikhlas dalam menyiapkan tesis.:p baekla.

Hafalan shalat Delisa.

its a great movie. second indo movie that has really touched my heart. the first one of course la Laskar Pelangi. you can read the entry about that in here.

“Maha Suci Engkau Ya Allah, yang telah menciptakan perasaan. Maha Suci Engkau yang telah menciptakan ada dan tiada. Hidup ini adalah penghambaan. Tarian penghambaan yang sempurna. Tak ada milik dan pemilik selain Engkau. Tak ada punya dan mempunyai selain Engkau.
Tetapi mengapa Kau harus menciptakan perasaan? Mengapa Kau harus memasukkan bongkah yang disebut dengan "perasaan" itu pada mahkluk ciptaanMu? Perasaan kehilangan.. perasaan memiliki.. perasaan mencintai..

Kami tak melihat, Kau berikan mata, kami tak mendengar, Kau berikan telinga, Kami tak bergerak, Kau berikan kaki. Kau berikan berpuluh-puluh nikmat lainnya. Jelas sekali, semua itu berguna! Tetapi mengapa Kau harus menciptakan bongkah itu? Mengapa Kau letakkan bongkah perasaan yang seringkali menjadi pengkhianat sejati dalam tubuh kami. Mengapa? ”

i believe everything happens for a reason. kenapa mahu mengeluh dengan ujian Allah sedangkan tuhan bagi kamu ujian itu hanya untuk menjadikan kamu lebih kuat dan tabah. kenapa mahu menyalahkan takdir bila ditimpa masalah dan musibah sedangkan kamu tahu Allah sentiasa ada bersama-sama kamu ketika kamu menghadapi kesusahan. kekuatan kita ada pada doa. berdoa dan yakinlah pada Allah. jangan ada sedikit pun prasangka buruk terhadapNya kerana hanya Dia yang mampu menyayangi kamu lebih daripada sekalian makhluk dan seluruh isi alam ini.

dan kamu.

ya kamu.

aku sayang kamu kerana Allah...

He Knows what is in every heart. (67:13)

i dont judge ppl.
so i hope they will stop judging ppl as well.

who are we to judge ppl? we are not that perfect. please remember that. if i were to choose my husband, i wud find someone that I really care. its okay if hes not really warak just like Imam Muda. its okay if he cant help me with house chores. i can understand if he cant give me fully attention when i need him. but.. i will looking for someone better than me in agama. someone who can guide me to follow him to the right path in our journey looking for the Jannah. whether ive already found him or not, its all in Allah's hand.

I place my full trust in Him and always have a faith in Allah. He's the central focal point of our lives.

...

i dont really know him. but deep inside my heart, i know hes not that bad. i dont need a handsome guy to be my husband. beauty will not last forever. i dont dream a perfect husband. Allah created men and women to complete each other. when Allah give me His greenlight and permission for me to get married, then I will follow His order. because only Him knows the perfect guy for me...

Ya Allah..
My heart is made by you.
It beats for you and only you.
You hear my thoughts in every breath.
You always know whenever this heart is a little sore.
Please convince me that everything's gonna be okay.-.-"
Thank you ya Allah...

Nothing shakes the smiling heart

he approached her and said, "you have a very nice smile. can i take picture with you?" and the girl replied "yes sure.. why not."

and they took picture together.

please mind the widely smile on my face. bapak segan orang ramai pon boleh berenti tengok kitorang amek gambar.-.-" aihhh..

but you know what. that guy is soo cool. (budak lagi kot) no wonder qaliz n adi sangat glakan british ppl. *contoh terdekat = Ed westwick & adele. the way they compliment ppl pon boleh cair kot.XDD and i found 1 article about '5 reasons to date a British guy'. one of the reason is British men have been raised with royalty and treat women like princesses. hooo. sounds great huh.

May the smile on your face come straight from your heart.^o^
gudnyte peeps.

the pain.

First of all, i want to take this chance to wish Selamat Menyambut Eid al-Mawlid an-Nabawi to all muslims in this world. Semoga hidup kita lebih diberkati dalam sentiasa mendoakan dan merindui Nabi junjungan kita, Nabi Muhammad S.A.W.

Its Sunday.
i woke up soo late today.(kul 10pagi dikira lambat ea?) coz i cant sleep very well lastnyte. asyik terjaga sebab senggugut.T__T letih kot dah tido macam-macam cara still rasa sakit.-.-" and harini hari yang sangatttt la tak produktif bagi aku. bangun-bangun tengok Muhammad the Idol. ceramah Imam Suhaib kat channel 9. then i dont know what i did after that. kul 2 lebih still sakit perut. then sambung tido. hewww. bosan taw dak! tak taw nak botpa. suddenly my sis kejut suh siang ikan.

aihhh. with my sleepy voice i asked her "asal tak siang sendiri?" *i mean, aku tengah senggugut kot. then she said "i dont know how to siang ikan. kang hancur plak ikan tu." aihhh. along, plis cari husband yang pandai siang ikan nanti okay.-.-"

once clumsy..
forever will be. T.T
jari saya luka kena sisik ikan. sobs. sisik? ke sirip? derr.

kat opis pon sama. everyday, mesti ada je menda yang boleh buat luka. i dont understand how someone can easily hurt herself every time she touches anything.
hari ni luka sebab kena ubat stapler. esok luka time susun-susun paper yang dah di-fotostat. 0__o *tu baru kerja jadi kerani kot. im the most careless person ive ever met.-.-"

however, when i got injured, i will always said "Alhamdulillah." Allah chose me to bear this kind of pain. coz i know He wanted me to keep remembering Him dan terus berdoa to Him.

they say sakit boleh hilangkan dosa.
and because of this,
i wont complain to you.
i'll gladly bear the pain.
btw.
ubat senggugut saye tido je la.
+___+
coz i dont prefer taking any menstrual pil.
so, tahan jela kan.
sebulan sekali je kot.:p

My bestfriend's wedding!

wanna know something? im gonna be a bridesmaid!:) i know. i know. its soooo exciting right. hehe. aaaa. i cant wait.

ceritanya bermula dari sini...

her: fie, turun la kl disweek. jumpa aku.
me: pasai pa aku kena gi sana? ang la turun melaka. 0__o
her: alaaaa. depa plan nak gather ramai-ramai wiken ni. aku nak jumpa hg.
me: oooo. ni mesti sebab ang nak bagi kad kawen kan?
her: heee~ aah. jom la jumpa sementara aku masih bujang ni.:p

...

me: hanis!!!~ i already bought the flight tix! haha. laju tak?
her: waaa! sukanyaaaa!!~ ada jugak kawan aku nak datang. (*ayat sedih. paddiaa.) ang kena jadi pengapit aku taw.
me: harusssss. habaq kat mak ang sediakan baju cantek-cantek untuk aku.XDD
her: okay syg!!

...
...

just because aku dah tak larat nak naek bas dari melaka ke aloq setaq, so i just asked along tengokkan tix flight kot2 ada murah. oh. i was so lucky sebab airasia ada promotion aritu. hehe.

shes one of my bestfriend kat matrik penang dulu. err. aku paleng rapat dengan dia kot sebab 1 kelas.

one day..
hanis: fie, teman aku tidoq malam ni.
me: awat? malas la. blok hg jauh.-.-"
hanis: alaaa. aku takot la. hg temanla. pagi sok, aku antaq la hg balek blok.
me: hg dah taw hg penakot, yang hg pi tengok cite exorcist tu pasai paaaaaa? haaaa. yela2. malam ni aku pi bilik hg.

hehe. klakar okay. pagi-pagi lagi dengan baju tido paras lutut, ada 2 orang budak perempuan sedang berlegar-legar di kawasan matrik.+__+ jalan pon terhuyung hayang sebab sumpah mamai. tapii.. lepas2 tu, aku otomatik jadi pengunjung tetap bilik dia. dan hanis jadi penghantar setia sy ke blok. sebab aku penakot kan. tolongla bersabaq dengan aku. ekekeke.

antara kawan-kawan yang lain, kami 2 orang ja paleng suka ponteng kelas. yana, eg n mira agak rajen pi kelas. tapi bila aktiviti menyeludup keluaq kolej merangkak kat pagaq belakang petang-petang pi pasaq malam ka, suma orang join la.(sumpah kena merangkak okay) kalau depa malas or nak tidoq, aku join member fara plak. haha. *me n farahusna dulu 1 matrik. for me, member skola is more to adek beradek. she knows everything about you. its like she will always be there for you whenever you need her.^^ *dahla aku n fara je yang sesat kat penang. member2 laen suma dok matrik melaka. bosan gla kotttt.

okay. back to our story. so, bila masuk U, aku pi terengganu. hanis pi ukm. emm. 1 thing about me, if i was so close with someone, bestfriend la kan. sy mesti excited nak introduced her/him to my other friends. beriya kot nak suh cpah+qaliz kenal hanis. sama perasaan macam aku tarik adi kenal sume kawan-kawan U aku. marni+aqis. haha. and it turned out, cek mar lagi selalu cari adi dari aku. huh. habis madu, bekas isi madu dibuang dalam tong sampah.-.-" hee~

okay, dats all for today.

ehem. nis, patut la tiba-tiba aku rasa rindu kat hang. tros post nak makan kat kedai jepon tu dengan hg. kawan aku sorang ni dah nak kawen rupanya.

emm. woman's instinct sometimes can be really amazing. and scary too. 0__o btw.. nis.. im sooo happy for you. take care dear! May Allah bless you.:)

... my dear rum8 kat UMT dulu, cik mira pon nak sy jadi pengapit beliau disyear. oohh. kalau ampa suma kawen b4 aku, sapa nak jadi bridesmaid aku nanti?-.-" heh. efie berkira!

whether far or soon..

I miss you - Incubus

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, Utopian dream.

You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said "I miss you"?

I see your picture.
I smell your skin on
The empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days,
But already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care,
And I miss you..


this song is really sweet and meaningful.
i wanted to give this song to someone.
but not now..
coz i couldnt find 'that someone' yet.
at least for now.
so i just posted it randomly on my fb.
but the song..
its really beautiful.
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