loving someone took courage too. while others will keep it as a secret. but if its for me. when i really like someone, i would simply say it directly to him "know what? i really love you." because in my case, i wont say 'i love you' if i didnt meant it.
i had 2 relationships before. (plus minus non-serious relationship) the first one was during my matriculation. honestly, i dont really like him. but at that time i just accept him because my friends sangat minat dia sebab cute. aihhh. nampak sangat tak matured. but then, i feel like i dont want to be with him. i dont see any future when i was being with him. (baru 18 tahun. apa yang kau tahu pasal future fie?) its just i dont see any husband-like criteria in him. thats why i dumped him. its my fault. i cant accept his flaws. but you're not perfect either. and you shudnt be so mean with ppl.-.-"
and in umt, i found someone. someone who really likes me. maybe at that time he loved me more than he loves himself. willing to sacrifice everything. the one and only reason i accept him, its not because i like him too. its because all my friends asked me to do so. its really hard to find someone that really love you. and all ppl around me were really like him. his attitude. tak kesahla kawan-kawan, budak U, lecturer, pak guard sume suka dia kot. then i thought why not give him a chance. but it was too bad.. all his kindness still couldnt warm my heart. keras hati seperti batu. they said i was too cold hearted. but what should i do? i cant force my own feelings. until one day, when i said please let me go. it was the most cruel decision i had in my life. i know. what goes around comes around. im sorry. i really am.
tick tock. tick tock.
then you became single. you were so happy with your friends. the fact that you can love your girlfriends more than a guy. thats because you know, friends will last forever. berkawan sampai mati. but the guy? you will never know whether the relationship will last or not.
but the thing with loving someone. you'd hope that someone will love you too. even a tiny wheeenyyy possibility of loving you. the words 'i love you.' you have to be responsible with that when you say it. it gave hope to ppl who received it. with him. i still remember perfectly how we can be so close. the feelings selesa jadi adek has change to other feelings. and when you really love someone, you dont even realized when, where and why he suddenly became so important in your life. you can told him everything. made him feel so annoying with you. joking. playing. dating. things like that. and the best thing that i like when i fall in love, i can really be myself whenever i was being with him. and when he told you he loved you too. what more could you asked for? there you just said, Alhamdulillah. at least theres still a guy in this world can likes you the way you are. you thank Allah for giving you a chance to meet someone that you can love from the bottom of your heart.
time flies..
he was so busy with his works. and you.. have to focused things in your life. there you feel like theres a distance between you and him. he's so far from you. it was so hard to get in touch with each other. until.. you feel like all the feelings were not there anymore. you were so tired of chasing that feelings back. wondering where you stand. whether you are still in his heart. or not. but when you truly care for someone, their flaws never change your feelings. because its the mind that gets angry. but the heart still cares.
orang cakap hidup kita ni karma. today, you break someones heart. then tomorrow, other ppl will break your heart. balasan cash aku dah dapat dari Tuhan. i never fall deeply in love before. and i never love someone like this before. it makes me feel so weak. wheres the cold hearted efie that i know go?
i had 2 relationships before. (plus minus non-serious relationship) the first one was during my matriculation. honestly, i dont really like him. but at that time i just accept him because my friends sangat minat dia sebab cute. aihhh. nampak sangat tak matured. but then, i feel like i dont want to be with him. i dont see any future when i was being with him. (baru 18 tahun. apa yang kau tahu pasal future fie?) its just i dont see any husband-like criteria in him. thats why i dumped him. its my fault. i cant accept his flaws. but you're not perfect either. and you shudnt be so mean with ppl.-.-"
and in umt, i found someone. someone who really likes me. maybe at that time he loved me more than he loves himself. willing to sacrifice everything. the one and only reason i accept him, its not because i like him too. its because all my friends asked me to do so. its really hard to find someone that really love you. and all ppl around me were really like him. his attitude. tak kesahla kawan-kawan, budak U, lecturer, pak guard sume suka dia kot. then i thought why not give him a chance. but it was too bad.. all his kindness still couldnt warm my heart. keras hati seperti batu. they said i was too cold hearted. but what should i do? i cant force my own feelings. until one day, when i said please let me go. it was the most cruel decision i had in my life. i know. what goes around comes around. im sorry. i really am.
tick tock. tick tock.
then you became single. you were so happy with your friends. the fact that you can love your girlfriends more than a guy. thats because you know, friends will last forever. berkawan sampai mati. but the guy? you will never know whether the relationship will last or not.
but the thing with loving someone. you'd hope that someone will love you too. even a tiny wheeenyyy possibility of loving you. the words 'i love you.' you have to be responsible with that when you say it. it gave hope to ppl who received it. with him. i still remember perfectly how we can be so close. the feelings selesa jadi adek has change to other feelings. and when you really love someone, you dont even realized when, where and why he suddenly became so important in your life. you can told him everything. made him feel so annoying with you. joking. playing. dating. things like that. and the best thing that i like when i fall in love, i can really be myself whenever i was being with him. and when he told you he loved you too. what more could you asked for? there you just said, Alhamdulillah. at least theres still a guy in this world can likes you the way you are. you thank Allah for giving you a chance to meet someone that you can love from the bottom of your heart.
time flies..
he was so busy with his works. and you.. have to focused things in your life. there you feel like theres a distance between you and him. he's so far from you. it was so hard to get in touch with each other. until.. you feel like all the feelings were not there anymore. you were so tired of chasing that feelings back. wondering where you stand. whether you are still in his heart. or not. but when you truly care for someone, their flaws never change your feelings. because its the mind that gets angry. but the heart still cares.
orang cakap hidup kita ni karma. today, you break someones heart. then tomorrow, other ppl will break your heart. balasan cash aku dah dapat dari Tuhan. i never fall deeply in love before. and i never love someone like this before. it makes me feel so weak. wheres the cold hearted efie that i know go?
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