coz i know we'll be okay

to be honest.. ive never been a girlfriend with 1001 jealousy inside me. thats just not me. because in my opinion, if you cant trust him, then why you loved him and want to marry him in the first place? its just, if i love someone, i will put my trust in him and push it as far as i can. okay. ni lirik lagu linkin park.^^ emm.. i never stopped him befriend with anybody. because as for me, i cant stand being controlled by anybody. nak-nak jenis manusia rebel cam aku. and because of that, i dont like control people. ive seen many of my friends who cant trust their bf like your bf has to report everything to you as in all his activities starts the moment he opened his eyes and get up from the bed. and check their hp everytime they met.(oh. i just did this recently. but its not that i want to check his msg or what. but smartfon is always the best gadget to explore. haha) how can you give your life to him if you cant even do the most basic thing in relationship? trust and believing each other.

but lately.. i dont know why. the feeling that i mentioned just now. its always came bothering me. why am i like this? insecure? you are grown up enuf to let all those stupid feelings get into you. jealousy. its not a good thing. if not, takde la ayat jealousy turning saints into the sea. -__-" but in my case, as long as he knows how to console and calm me down, then i'll be okay and i wont ask anything.

i read my friend's status in fb.

"Jiwa perempuan ini sejuk, sebab tu dia suka merajuk." -Ustaz Azhar Idrus

ive no idea what does he meant by 'sejuk' since i didnt listen to his ceramah. is it cold yang bermaksud dingin tu? or sejuk as in boleh jadi beku. camane jiwa yang sejuk? but i totally agree when he stated 'sebab tu kuat merajuk.'

and i know.. if i have un-reasonable feelings bothering my heart like this, all i have to do is to keep berdoa. and guess what..

"Allah tu pemujuk hati yang terbaek."

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writing entry like this while listening to yuna's song is really not a good idea. sekian.