A Gift From GOD

He said that she was like a rezeki from Allah. Upon hearing that words, that girl felt so overwhelmed. She didnt even expect that someone who would considered her as rezeki dari Tuhan.

Im just like any other girl. Looking for someone who can loves me like what i wanted to. Someone whom I can see happiness inside his eyes every time he looked at me. Someone who can never let me go as he cant live without me. I wanted to be that someone. Someone who can love the one that loved her wholeheartedly. Having LOVE with no boundaries and ending.

But to seek what you are searching for. Its not that easy. You have to struggle to get it. They said 'Jodoh di tangan tuhan'. But if you didnt make an effort and try to get it from HIM, selamanya jodoh tu tetap di tangan Tuhan.

Time flew. He gives that someone to you. There you thank God for sending him to you. Where you feel like your fate and his fate are overlap. You love him so much without leaving a little dot of love for yourself. Until you forgot who you are and what are you supposed to do. Whats your purpose in life. Maybe you fly so high. Until you forgot that you are just a small little bird who can easily fall down with your broken wings. You are too grateful for the LOVE you are searching for. but theres no point in that happiness when the one who eager and happy is yourself. Not others. In which, in his eyes, you are not the one that he looking for. And there is always someone who he can find. Someone who is better than you. In every aspects.

Instead of wanting people to love you, why dont you love yourself fie?
Instead of wanting people to appreciate you, why dont you appreciate yourself first?

Its not GOD doesnt want to send someone to love you right. Someone who can give you love the way you always wanted. Its just He wants you to be with HIM since HE can loves you more than others can do.

I woke up this morning with a song played in my head. And i kept thinking what was the name of that song. And suddenly, just now this title appeared in my mind.

"Because I Don't Know How to Love"
by FT Island

Ya. I know. Im still addicted to FT Islands song until now. I feel like i have a middle age crisis. Since one by one my friends were getting engaged and married. Oh ya. Biela already delivered a cute baby boy last week.:) And wiken aritu borak dengan Kak She and she told me a very gud news. Dia dah pregnant for 10 weeks. Cam baru je buat entri pasal dia kawen aritu.-.- There goes my crisis again. Nak baby jugak. T___T